school had tied me down with assignments and exams.
so far completed 2 modules, housekeeping and front office operations.
i passed my housekeeping internal exam le. gt 56 marks!
today just took my front office exam... i'm quite certain i didn't do well...
hope i'm wrong bout this!

anyway, mel studied the same course same school and same time, but not same class with me.
too many things happened recently.
i'm totally lost now...

my grandma was admitted to tan tong seng hospital, now in ICU.
she had been there for 5 days already.
at first doc say it's something like a stroke but till now still can't find the main reason of it yet.
the doc said there are 2 types of germs in her blood and that she had lung infection.
and now she's breathing through a oxygen tube and she can't talk...
doc will try taking out the tube and let her breathe herself, if she can, chances of recovering is higher, if it's the other way round, we got to be metally prepared for the worse..
when i see those tubes piercing through her skin, it really aches my heart.
my grandma already so old le, why must go through this kind of torture?
how can she endure all these?
everytime i see her fragile body lying on bed, and when she tried to talk but no voice came out,
refused to rest because she's afraid we will leave her alone,
grab my hand tightly for fear i return home,the tiredness in her eyes...
it feels as if a thousand knifes stabbing deep into my flesh.
i couldn't describe the feeling.
it hurts badly. i dunno wad can i do to help her...
i'm scared. really scared. i dun wanna lose her.
i can never take it.
i cried badly to see her lying on bed, with all kinds of tubes, getting endless injections for blood tests, tried to talk but simply no words came out.. you know how fucking sad it is to see someone so so dear to you become like tat all of a sudden?
on the day she was admitted to hospital, she was sleeping on her sofa, taking naps,
i dun wanna disturb her so left school without saying bye to her.
why is it so unfair?
i just can't bear to see her in this state.
my grandfather is the most xin ku of all.
he already so old. still make an effort to work, after tat visit grandma in hospital, return to work again and return to hospital at night, and he didn't get suffient sleep. i'm really worried for him too.
father and mother also tired already. mother got to do everything herself and father got to work without sleeping at all since he's in the hospital most of the time.
my aunt will be flying back to see grandma.
my 2 younger sisters cry like dunno wad since they know they were not up to helping out.

dear god.

please. i plead you. please help my grandma.
please bless her for full recovery. please watch over her.
please let her conditions become better. please let her stay with us.
i'm not asking for prosperity, good wealth and fortune or status of important people;
all i want is for everybody i know to be healthy and well, safe and sound.
tat's all i ever needed.
please bless my ah ma well again!
prays hard*

think tat will be all.
shall update when i'm free.


dun wanna lose you.never. ever.
i love you ah ma...='(

it's finally weekend!!!!
can't believe i've had 5 lessons in boston already!
i still can't really adapt to the school life now..
partly because i've not been studying for bout 2 years. for goodness sake!

my lecturer had finish teaching 5 chapters of facilities and accommodations,
all i could say was, so far so good.
i can still understand and follow up with the lessons.
i even answered questions that she asked!
there will be a group assignment for us to complete.
i'll be doing it with linez, pris and thazin.
the lecturer almost group us when one of the student, ah tan and siva asked her to group us instead of we choose ourselves!!!
cos rite in front of me is siva and ah tan so ah tan turned around and asked to join as a group!!!!
i dun wanna do assignment with ah tan who is old enough to be my father and siva whose language i just need to take a very long time to understand!
i'm not being choosy and mean.. jst feels damn weird..
luckily pris told my lecturer, cecilia tat we have gotten ourselves a group.=/

class was fun since there's all kinds of people around.
just got to know the 4 myanmar guys in class.
i took a long time to remember their names.. tho ya who is 21 years old, say ya 26 years old, chan nian 24 years old and shu mu 28 years old.
tat's roughly how their names sounds like..
tho ya keeps on laughing so i nickname him "laugh laugh".
the others name chan nian "ku ku" which means " brother" in myanmar.
i always called him tat and he will abit shy shy den laugh one..
i learn some myanmar language from thazin and say them to the boys,
who laugh at me cos i'm not very sure bout it..
during break we'll hang around downstairs and talk...
in all, my classmates are nice and fun lah.. =)

hopethe rest of the lessons will turn out well for me..

tough road ahead*

it's my fourth day in boston and everything is pretty fine for me now.
i still can understand wad my lecturer said and i've make new friends!
my class is make up of 14 people of different ages, countries.
got to know 2 girls whom i could click with which was good...
priscilla and linez.
and i got a nickname call apple by one of them.
she just can't rem my name!
it's such a coincidence that our surname are tan, i got a book exactly the same as pris!
overall school wasn't as bad as i thought.

well. shall update again.
=)

tomolo have to reach school by 11.30am cos of the stupid orietation.
i hope it's not play stupid games like break the ice or wadever hell it is gonna be.
may lady luck be smiling to me tomolo.
i dun wan to look like a fool on the first day of school.
thinking back now, i changed my mind regarding being returning to study is a good thing.
i have to adapt to the new environment, new way of learning things and worse of all, making new friends.
i'm really bad at starting a conversation with someone.
the conversation will onlyonly last a few mins before everything ends.
i simply hates the awkward feeling.
i'm never good at making friends!

hadn't heard from dear for nearly a day.
by rite he should be back from malaysia today but till now i still didn't get any msg nor calls from him.
i miss him terribly.
the feeling of missing someone yet there's no way to contact him is really bad.
he promised to meet me today...
but where is he now????

relationships can be tiring at times.
it's hard for 2 people of different character and attitudes to be together.
perhaps after some time of being together, you still couldn't adapt to your partner's lifestyle.
but i guess if both really makes an effort to like try to adapt or something like tat,
the relationship will still work.

it seems tat girls are normally the ones who got hurt and get dump in the end.
from my past relationships and wad some of my friends had gone through, this often happens.
girls are the ones who cried every nite thinking of the guy while the guy might be dating another girl already.
girls are the ones who become super thin after a broken-hearted.
u dun see guys not eating and cried all day long ba...
and it's really hard for a girl to let go of the relationship when she loves the guy dearly.
they will normally go through the hardest time of their life, walking alone without support,
tat's where they were the most fragile, and needs alot of encouragements and supports.

i really pity girls lah.
why must we go through all that?
it really hurts and the pain is unbearable.
i know because i feel it before..
the piercing sharp pain tat goes right through the heart.
damn emotional la.


men is afraid of women keeps on nagging non stop.
women is afraid of men keeping quiet all the time.

schedule for my course was changed without me knowing.
people around me were telling me not to go out thursday cos it's vesak day.
i thought since it's not really their "day" so maybe they wil still opened as per normal.
we step into the lift to go up but the lift was "locked", so the 2 security guards laughed and asked why we dun asked them first,and say it's public holiday so the school is closed.
hel was pretty annoyed cos they should have stop us since they know the school was closed.
anyway, i look really dumb with the formal white shirt with black pants while hel and ting were in casual.
i look damn mature also la, as if i'm their older sister.
blame it on my chao lao face. =(
it was good to meet up with friends and go shopping together since it's been sometime since i last saw the gals.

so i took a cab down to my school the very next day as i'm late.
the uncle was being nice to turn the temperature of the aircon down for me and try his best to locate the place.
it cost 12.50 for the total but the uncle only charged me 12 bucks, i know it's merely 50 cents but it's been nice of him already. =)
it didn't turn out too bad as i've seen a couple of cute guys of boston!
i'm asked to wait for a while before my agent, aileen approached me telling me about the changed schedule.
she apologised for not informing me earlier as it's not really confirmed at tat time.
well, so it's changed to 11 june, and it's 12.30pm to 3.30pm daily as in weekdays only.
so again, i wasted another trip there...

i've not seen my boy and it's the 10th day already.
he had been working there for a week without any off days because the restuarant was short handed.
it aches my heart to see him work so hard yet he dun have a choice whether to work or not to..=(
i miss him so much.. =(

will upload the pics taken the other time with hel and boy soon.
for now, let me have some peace..

8 more days before the course starts.

couldn't describe how i feels right now.

a mixture of excited, fear, worried.

just hope everything turns out really okie for me.



quite a lot of things happen in between these times.

it's damn hard to list all of them out and i dun wan people to read and feel bored.

anyway. harriet business school got boy a part time job as a waiter at a italian restuarant.

he had been working there for bout 3, 4 weeks i guess.

the people working there were friendly and i'm glad he got along well with them. =)

oh man, i like the way he dress with white shirt and black pants, really smart looking!!!

he look more like a man working in office den a waiter. loves it!=D



i'm always a cab-lover cos it's convenient, comfortable and most importantly,

dun have to squeeze with people!!!!

i can't expect all taxi uncles to be extremely nice and friendly cos humans came with different character and behaviour.



let me list a few kind of taxi uncles i've met:

1. super friendly, chit chat with customers all the time.


2. polite yet really quiet, one who smile and say goodbye and thank you to customers.


3. super duper quiet, just ask where you go and slience filled the air.


4. greedy ones, who purposely go one big round when there's actually a shorter route.


5. damn rude kind, as if the whole world own him 1 million.

i met the 5th kind a few days ago. i got on a cab and tell him my destination, he is already very unfriendly when i got up the cab but i thought nothing of it cos i thought he might be the 2nd or 3rd kind as most uncles dun talk alot one... but i'm completely wrong. he is the most rude and most agrressive i've ever seen!!!

when he stopped at my place, i give him the amount and he return my money coldly, without even looking at me.And so unfortunately, i carried 1 big bag and 1 big shopping bag. to make it worse, the shoe on my left foot fell off and i tried hard getting myself out of the cab with my hand full of things, faster wear my shoe back but stupid shoe cock up and make it hard for me to wear, and because i always take a look in the cab to see if i have forgot something..i guess all these took 1-3 mins times only, that fuck up uncle actually shouted, " HURRY UP MAN!" in a very harsh and angry tone. so this is how one suppose to behave in the customer service line?oh yeah, after i slam the damn door, he drive off as fast as he could so i can't see his damn number plate. anyway, it's a blue colour cab, can't remember his face cos it's too dark.

DAMN!!

it's quite sad that these type of people still exist. how could they treat customers like tat?so wad if i'm just a kid to him? so does it means that he, as a taxi driver, only respect people older or people witha status? how i wish i had take note of his number plate, i will sure complain to his boss!!! so pissed off.

i hate blue colour cabs. =/

已经好久没有blog了，
就说说我的近况吧！
最近大部分的时间都在家，
我已经辞掉mac delivery operator的工作了。
理由很简单。

第一个原因是由于我的course 就要在差不多两个礼拜内开课，所以我想好好的休息，准备找回中学时的感觉，毕竟我大概有两年没有碰过书本了，需要时间适应。
至于第二个原因是我在sitel并不开心，虽然已在那里有8,9 months，
不过在这段短短的几个月，让我了解人的本性，人的自私自利。
sitel 就像是个战争地。我们都是兵士，原本该并肩做仗，
可是却自己杀自己人。
同事之间该互相帮忙而不是想尽办法陷害你。
有的人有求于你，they expect you to help them.
那当你需要帮忙时，they treat you like transparent,完全不理会或敷衍你几句就算了。
这样的工作环境值得做吗？
你根本不知道下一秒会发生什么事。
或许你们会觉得我说的太夸张了，
但句句都是真话。
i'm very tired and sick of working there.
quite glad that i've quitted the job.=)


走出了虚伪的地带，
相信明天会更好！！！
如果没记错的话，上个礼拜约ting,ling and hel去高歌一曲玩的真的很开心。
联络所的ktv收费很便宜！
四个小时一个人才七，八块！
虽然没有现在最in的歌曲，
但已经很不错了啦，k box might have the newest songs,but the price is double!!!
姐妹们， 我们一定要把珊瑚海唱的完美无暇！=D
拍了满多我们的自恋照，还在修改中，will upload asap!

原本是要陪dear去giordano interview的。
但是他突然感觉不适所以取消那个念头，
后来决定去tampines mall看spiderman 3 和去找看有没有我要的白色衬衫。
spiderman 3 实在太棒了！
我很喜欢在里面演反派的James Franco.
他即有性格又帅。而且帅带点坏坏的感觉，
正是我喜欢的类型！
一个一直以为父亲的死和自己从小玩到大的好朋友，peter,也就是人人尊敬的spiderman有关，
被仇恨冲昏了头的harry决定杀了peter,为父亲报仇。
一次的失败导致失忆，让他脸上原有的邪恶魔样变得温柔了许多。
笑得变咪咪眼在加上灿烂的笑容，very cute!!!
后来恢复记忆伤害了自己和朋友。
一场爱与恨的纠纷才在管家的口中知道了真相，
风光的和spiderman联手对付敌人，
最后还牺牲自己拯救大英雄。
完美感人的结局。
他变成了我心目中的hero!!!=)

i'll end it here...=)
ciaos!