Wednesday, May 31, 2006
okies. i koe i look terrible in here. with no make ups, dark eye bags, red nose and tearful sicko face of mine..i announced.i cried. cried badly.had a fight. quite a bad fight with my sister. and i mean really FIGHT. you guys might say, " hey, but u are already 18, still so childish lea!" she fights with me first. I mean, you can't expect me to sit there and let her slap me, kick me, scratch me all she wants ba.. i had to defence also ma.. i wanted to stop but tat idiot just keep on getting me on. DAMN!!!!i cried not because i lose to her. cos during the fight, we had some struggles and all and she pulled off my bracelet. it was only after the whole thing is over den i realised tat my precious bracelet had broken into half. and it cannot be fixed anymore. it's not just any bracelet tat i just sad for a while den next day okie tat kind of feeling. tat bracelet was the 1st actual present hubby had buy for me!!! i've like spoil the necklace which comes along with the bracelet already, and now, the only bracelet is gone too! of couse i'm like so so so sad. i break down immediately. shouted rite into my sister face and cried my heart out. the bracelet is just so dear to me. and i've spoil it over some stupid cat fight which i dun even koe wad's the reason of fighting!!!!!i just hide in my bedroom, hugging my pillow and keeps crying. it's like i've not taken good care of the stuffs hubby had given me. and i feels so guilty about it. i've told hubby about it and he say he would get me another one. i told him straight tat i dun wan a new one, as it's not the same any more...it cannot be replaced by another one easily. guess you ppl can understand how i feels bah. anyway. i'm okie already. the broken bracelet and necklace are still in my drawer. though i can't use them anymore, they will still be the memory deep down in my heart. anyway. here to tell hubby again,i'm really sorry. muackies. watch singapore idol just now.and i thought they give me quite a surprise.those whom i thought were good, turn out to be otherwise.and those whom i thought were just another boy band voice,turns out to be pretty good. =)i've took a liking to Levin ng, Paul Twohill, Norman then and Jonathan leong's voices.Levin sings ' Dancing in the moonlight" by toploader and i tink his voice not bad lah. den gt those good boy looks with small small eyes. =pPaul sings " Here without you" by 3 doors down. and i like it very much! he sings it well. and he had his own attitude and style. but one thing i dun like about is... his hair! it covers almost all of his face. and the way he swing his hair is so... lols.Norman is my favourite of all i've mention!!!! he sings "Drops of Jupiter" by train. his voice so nice lah. maybe others dun like lah. but i tink his voice power lah. some more, he looks quite cute to me. =pLast but not the least, Jonathan seems to be a hot- favourite. he like gt many fans like tat. den his voice is so man. hahas. unique lah. maybe tat's wad leaves a deep impression of him to ppl bah.Terence Tay so cute lah. i like his smile.can't rememebr which judge says he gt the boy band voice.hehs. Janson Tay got tis boylish look, den when he talks, voice very nice but when he sings arh, different voice. =/ and James Tay, he was okies lah. i just koe he is one of the guy under Bryan wong and Kym ng's variety show, " yuan lai jiu shi ni". they were okie.but their performance are average i guess. all i could say is, different ppl have different tastes. you may like it or it could be the other way round. who knows? =)i miss hubby.quite long never see him already.hmm. sad leh. okies la. ciaos.TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.
Amanda shouted @ 10:52 PM
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
yummy is with Zed's gf now.so sad lah. hubby's mother also object of having a dog.anyway,dear visited yummy in his fren's house on sunday.yummy walk up to dear and like wan to cling on dear.but den she too small la. couldn't do much.hubby den carries her and sayang sayang her.oh man. she is cute.and yeah,no doubt. it's a female doggie.no wonder she loves hubby lah. =pZed says if hubby and i wanted yummy,we can have her. and so,i've asked my father regarding having a dog in the house.he said it's better that we dun keep one, he said there's alot of things to do to keep a dog,very inconvenient.i bet father also not againest the idea.it's just tat my mum will never agrees to it.so sad lah.but i believe Zed will take very good care of yummy one.i'm more den relieved to koe tat Zed took yummy with him.at least i koe yummy is safe and sound with a nice person like Zed.dear and i loves yummy so much.we would be glad to have tat sweet little thing around us.we wanted her so much.but well.there's nothing much we could do also.feeling so down now. hmm. i love drums la.and i admire ppl who plays it well.si hui is so so heads over heels over one of the superband group,Man tou. eh no. should be Man tou's drummer, Yuda!!!she is so gaga over him now.say he handsome and all.everything also yuda yuda yuda.lols.i myself like mi lu bing's drummer, Samuel who is also known as Sam.he is kind of cute also la, isn't it?and the threesome is good.3 ppl with 3 different characters, talents, voices.they can make it far. =)i miss my peh peh already.poor hubby had to do duty from 9pm-2am.not enough ppl lah.haiis. despite being so tired,he still wants to call me after his duties.so sweet of him lah. muackies. love him to bits!alright. got to go.ciaos peeps.tears behind that smiling face.
Amanda shouted @ 9:49 PM
Sunday, May 28, 2006
This sweet little doggie here belongs to hubby's friend.it's so so adorable isn't it?i fell in love with it the moment i saw it's pic.his friend is giving it away...hubby called me and ask if i wanted it...of course i wan it lah.but my mum dun like animals...so as to say, she doesn't allow one at home.which is so so sad for me,though i'm quite scare of animals...but little yummy doesn't scares me...in fact, it gives me a feeling to like protect it....give it a nice nice home.sayang sayang it. =(dear asking his mother tml whether he could keep it..cos dear likes it alot too...hope it's a yes...cos i can't bear to see yummy go..it's so so so so cute lah.I want yummy badly lah.sobs........TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.
Amanda shouted @ 10:56 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
oh my. helps!anybody can tell me wad can i do at home?i'm freaking bored.i'll died from boredom someday.have been staying home for the whole of today.did some housechores. and i'm feeling like a housewife.damn. tat's the problem when u dun have enough money to spend!!!!i need a job!!!!!mac operator, call me!never see my hubby again.say he will try to come and meet me.but den he didn't. again.who can i blame?my guy is tired from the stupid duties he do every single day!poor hubby.and wads' more.his prepaid no money again.and of course i had to wait for his call again.in fact.i hate talking on the phone.especially no matter how hard you tried squeezing yr brain juices,you still couldn't find anything tat you can talk and talk without stopping.and there's tis very awkward slience.damn. damn. damn!!!!!!haii. i had tis stupid problem with my dear.nothing to talk on the phone.but when meet up arh...non stop!!!haii. i miss him hell lots lah.dunno when den can meet him.one day nv see him will die man.i'm addicted to hubby already. =)and it's been so long since i last see hel. ling, ting all..when will we go out and laugh like mad again?i miss you gurls alot know?faster plan one outing for we all la.okies lah. gtg liao.cos i've got nothing else to blog abt anymore.bye!TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.
Amanda shouted @ 10:22 PM
Friday, May 26, 2006
ytd meet dear...den when i'm on my way there,it's raining quite heavily already.and i'm like drenched with rain. =/took cab down to east coast.eventually the rain had stop...but den when we almost reach the bicycle shop,it starts to RAIN HEAVILY.
so we decided to go to the bowling alley nearby.but den in order to save money...we go to the arcade instead.and tat arcade was like very lao ya one.only have those machines games.i'm already sian half le.only there to see hubby play.and students in uniform were allowed in there.there's no rules and regulations in there.but who cares.None of my business also.played till like 4.30 like tat,by tat time the rain somehow had stop.den we decided to go cycle.i'm quite persistent.heh heh.so we paid money.and it starts to drizzle again.down on luck i suppose. but we continue to ride and ride. but it's so nice riding in such a cool weather.at least i dun sweat so much. =)den ride through one route quite wulu wulu.but the route is extremely cooling.as if you are in an air condition place. =Dcos too many trees so block sunlight.so we ride all the way from the bicycle shop to Bedok jetty.by den it's near evening. and the sky is so so beautiful.but i left my hp inside my bag which is in the locker,did not manage to snap it down to keep it as a memory.anyway,the jetty was pretty full with ppl.most were fishing while a group of teenagers had pitch a tent there to ton.there's this uncle who had caught many many small fishes.those u find in nasi lemak.not ikan bilis lea.it's a full body de small fish which they fried i tink.it's like within 5 mins,he had caught at least 3.and he had a full plastic of small fishy.i'm rather impressed at it.hubby ask if wanna leave the place and ride back but i refused.=pand i koe one needs to have patience to like go fishing.i told hubby to bring me next time.but he just tell me straight tat i will never like it.say the 1st time when we didn't caught any fishes,i wun go a second time le. LOLS.i tink it's true. after tat we go play water by the seaside.thought the water wasn't very deep.but i have this fear within me tat tells me i will fall rite into it if nobody hold me.since dear like wanted to play so much..i grabbed his arm tight and started to walk with him.the feeling when the water brushed through yr feet,it's actually very very nice. just tat the water makes the sand soft la,my feet just keeps sinking into the sand. =/hubby just keep laughing at mehe enjoys seeing me looks funny and scared de.after washed up,we get changed and took cab down to PS.had dinner in Burger King.cos the stupid food court is full.arghhh.after tat dear play arcade again.den we buy tickets to the movie "over the hedge"to me it's pretty funny lah. and i love the 3 baby porcupines.damn cute!!!!!especially when they laughed and said," mama"lols. and the whole theatre was full of laughter.the 2 guys a row before me was laughing hell loud.and i mean really loud!!!
perhaps tat's the way they relax themselves from the stress they had during work.ahem. anyway.i thought they were ajs.cos both look like they were.but they laughter quite man la.so i dismiss my thoughts.hahas.after all.it's a nice + cute movie la.worth watching. =Dgtg. ciaos.TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.
Amanda shouted @ 4:27 PM
Amanda shouted @ 10:40 PM
Monday, May 22, 2006
LIVING IN A GRATEFUL WORLD.
be grateful to those who have hurt ir harmed you,
for they have reinforced your determination.be grateful to those who have deceived you,
for they have deepened your insight.
be grateful to those who have hit you,
for they have reduced your karmic obstacles.
be grateful to those who have abandoned you,
for they have taught you to be independent.
be grateful to those who have make you stumble,
for they have strengthened your ability.
be grateful to those who have denounced you,
for they have increased your wisdom and concentration.
BE GRATEFUL TO THOSE WHO HAVE MADE YOU FIRM AND RESOLUTE AND HELPED IN YOUR ACHIEVEMENTS.
VALUE AND APPRECIATION
We often take things, people and situations for granted.
We take our loved ones for granted.
Friendships are taken for granted.
Relationships are taken for granted.
Peace is taken for granted.
Justice is taken for granted.
Equality is taken for granted.
Kindness is taken for granted.
When any of these are taken for granted, problems and unhappiness arises.
so, next time, stop and think,
how much the people around us mean to us.
Value, appreciation and treasure them before you lose them.
A little appreciation, not only makes the people around us happy,
but also stengthens the bond between each other and goes a long way.
Always remember a few words of appreciation makes a difference.
all these were taken from a card like thing.i find them very meaningful and true.mother bought me a " tian zhu" with beads.it represents " sun and moon"which says to protect me from evil, keep me safe and all.hmm. and it's very nice.shall upload it in my blog real soon.=)ytd meet dear.tok till 12 plus before he goes back by cab.and today is our 10 months anniversary le!2 more months to our 1 year anniversary.real fast. =Dmaybe thursday go cycling with dear again.den maybe after tat go watch movie.damn long nv watch movie le.gtg. ciaos.TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.
Amanda shouted @ 1:07 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
today my relatives all came to my house.and my youngest cousin, melody seems to be more familiar with us already.she used to cry and hide behind her mummy upon seeing us.tat's because we hardly meets up la.we dun have a choice. they stay near tiong bahru plaza there.while i stay at hougang. anyway. at least today she tries toking to us. and smiles to me every time she sees me.and i love her eye lashes. damn long.she's cute in a way or two la. but once she starts crying...there's no way of stopping her. =/my bruises ain't getting better.the left one is still a brown big patch and while the rite one is so colourful.know why i says tat?it's a combination of purple, blue, green, yellow and a little red.i just dun have orange, indigo and violet,or else i'll have a rainbow on my kneecap. (-_-")and the weather tonight is just so freaking warm.i'm feel so sticky and all.and at tis time, my damn air con is down again....guess i'll be having another sleepless nite again...sigh...tml dear meeting me.heh heh.finally can see him le.gtg. ciaos.TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.
Amanda shouted @ 10:28 PM
Amanda shouted @ 5:19 PM
Thursday, May 18, 2006
wednesday.suppose to meet dear at 1.get ready all le rush to cheers to buy one big bottle of green tea.wait damn long before a cab comes.so meet dear at his house there around 2 plus.took a cab to parkway there de NTUC.dear bought his fav biskit.den we bought sushis.and we look as if we were going for picnic instead of cycling.walk the underpass before reaching East Coast beach.it's been such a long time since i last go to beach.den we rent one 2 rider de bicycle.cost 8 bucks for an hour, but free for another hour.so overall. it's cheap i suppose?i was like so scare stiff regarding riding a bicycle..was scare of tis and tat. lols.den finally pluck up my courage and sit behind him de seat.at first was like very very nervous.scare fall down and all.den after a while,it's actually very fun. hehei'm like kind of addicted to the 2 rider de bicycle le.and there was times when i couldn't step on the thing. and he goes left and rite.and i'm laughing like mad...cos his reaction so cute. =pafter tat we took cab down to hougang cc to sing ktv.from 7 sing to 11.29 bucks.consider quite cheap.den dear and me sing for like almost 30-40 songs ba...but den we had lotsa fun.after all.i had a very enjoyable day.thanks to him. and i had a fall.den both my kneecaps blue black, in which my rite kneecap more jia lat cos it's swollen.den gt problem walking though.wad's funny is tat,dear dunno i fall.cos he was looking at ppl playing basket ball.and he had his back facing me.he had no idea at all.but a auntie inside cc saw.she was like keep on look at me.i fall at the side of the entrance.tat's why. so embarrassing lah.i'll upload the pics soon.ciaos.TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.
Amanda shouted @ 2:55 PM
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
In fact.nothing much happens today.help my mum mop floor, fetch my little sister back from tution classes.hmm. just now go to my fren's blog.den saw a link.it's a gay's blog.some ppl might feel disgusted at the thought of tat.but wait till u actually read all their entries.i tell u.IT'S DAMN TOUCHING AND SWEET.ppl of the same gender falling in love.it's amazing at how they had love each other.awww. really sweet.they can simply do anything for their other half.and i can really say tat,even normal bgr can't be compared to theirs.their love is so noble.some ppl might despise ppl who are homosexual.but hey. at least they koe how to love better den normal guys and gals.in fact, i've realised they understands their other half's feelings.and they will sort out their problems together.they dun quarrels. okies. hardly quarrels.and they remember the little things tat some of us tends to forgot quite easily like,their other half's birthdays, their anniversarys, being romantic, giving small little things etc.there's so much i can say.i dun tink it will be enough for me to say it all out...tink back guys,some times you dun rem such things yeah?they so sweet. so loving. so cute actually.i actually wonder why ppl can't accept them...they are like any other human,who wanted to be loved and care for..it's just tat they are attracted to their own gender.tat's all.why can't ppl accept them lea....perhaps singapore is still a conservative country bah.hmm. haiis.but i really admired their courage.to love unconditionally.and dun care wad other might say or look at them.applause for ajs!!! ( tat's wad they call themselves)anyway. tomolo meeting dear go cycling le.damn happy.finally can meet him liao.and hope nth crops up....=/TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE
Amanda shouted @ 11:06 PM
Monday, May 15, 2006
meet hel at 3 plus to go sing.sing till no voicee le.. =pafter tat meet ling.den took bus 72 to tampines.have dinner at pizza hut.and i have my oleans delight.yummy yummy.den i bought quite alot of things.belts, masks...and i've gotten my 512 mmc already!!!!!!and i've took some pics with the gurls. shall upload them real soon.=)jl had closed down his blog i suppose.cant go to the blog he used to give me.HAIYA. WAD FOR CARE SO DAMN MUCH?I'VE GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM. haiis.today nv get to meet dear.miss him so damn much.sad.
Amanda shouted @ 11:21 PM
Amanda shouted @ 8:30 PM
this ah peh dog was edited by my sister.
and this brown little puppy dog is edited by me... hehs.
PICS I'VE TAKEN WITH MY FRENZ !!!!
ANYWAY.there's nothing much going on recently.
and i've got nothing much to blog about too.
ytd meet dear.
and am glad tat he is getting better already.
now recuperating ba. =)
tml he going to the doctor in the army to check whether he is suffering from lung infection not.
PRAYS HARD*
hmm. tomolo meeting hel and ling le.
hahas. gurls outing again.
meeting hel first for singing!!!
den meet ling in tamp.
woo hoo.... =D
and i'll be getting 512 mmc from ling le.
wheee~
hmm. tat 's about it i suppose.
shall update if there's anything happening.
ciaos..
TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.
Amanda shouted @ 7:41 PM
Friday, May 12, 2006
and tis is my master piece!!!! damn pleased-
apple with a heart shaped by my sis.
apple with the letter "i" by my sister.
had dinner with dear at my house here de kopitian.
he had chicken cutlet and i had fried fish bee hon.
yummy yummy!!!!!
dear de chicken cutlet... =p
my fried fish bee hon soup...
pics taken with my sis...
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pics with hel.
the 2 of us.....again.
hel and me in the mrt.
parkview square. waiting cab nearby.it's so nice inside... =)
the way hel eat her cheese fries...it may look yucky.. but it's simply delicious.( plus curry sauce of kfc and chili.)
uncle who is busy fixing my heels.today vesak day.most ppl would take tis holiday and go out shopping.and me...staying home to pack my room.i've not been going out for the past few day already.den dear fall sick.maybe it's lung infection.damn worried for him....and ytd nite due to the thurder..the electricity was cut off. and when it regained,stupid. the air con is not working!!!!and i had a hard time getting to slp...and maybe lady luck wasn't with me....my left upper and lower lips are swollen.my mother say it's cause by the heaty stuffs i've sent into my mouth...in other words,it's too heaty.but god doesn't treat me tat bad...
i found 20 bucks in my drawer!!!!
lols. very heng indeed!!!!!
ting and sihui have been persuading me to work with them as a mac operator.
am still considering whether to work there not.
the pay not bad lah. den will be working night shift i suppose.
the bad thing is,
i'll definately have lesser time to spend with dear, frenz and family....
haii. wad should i do.... =(
Amanda shouted @ 12:22 PM
