WHEN NOTHING ELSE MATTERS

Friday, June 30, 2006

hubby told me tat tonight's match very nice.
got to know tat it's Argentina vs Germany.
today's match really very hard to decide who will win.
both countries are pretty good.
but if you let me choose,
i'll choose Argentina!
dun ask me why,
cos i ain't sure too.
maybe it starts with the letter A like my name do?
no la, it's my instinct lah.
my instinct are accurate alright?
gurl's sixth sense is very strong one hor!!!!
hubby also tink it's Argentina will win.
couple thinks alike. whee~

read ling's blog.
i gt read ppl's blog one okie!
cos i know tat's the place where they show their true self.
the real self.
alright.
AMOS AMOS AMOS ATTENTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you are neglecting ling again le lah.
have to balance between friends and gf one wad.
ling is really upset tis time....
can see through her blog.
the way she rant in her blog,
can know how she feels one.
i can feel it,
AMOS YOU BETTER UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!
spend more time with darling ling okie,
dun always work work work.
money is important,
but if ling ignores you,
no matter how much money you had,
you will never be happy!!!

for me lah,
having the guy/gurl you love by your side is so much more important den having tons of money yet you dun know why you work so damn hard and yes, you might have endless money to spend now,
but you are lonely.
loved ones are more important den money.
tat's my philosophy.=)

just now watch the 7 pm show in channel u.
very nice show.
i like Owen la.
no,
should be " ruan jin tian"
he so cute lah...
he look like " la pi xiao xin" due to the thick eyebrows.
=p

my stupid aircon is down again.
damn. today's weather warm like shit.
having the fan blowing directly at me and i'm still so WARM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tomolo working le.
hope will be a easy one.
i'm like so sian to have fussy irritating customers!

saying bye bye time.
sayonaraaaaaaaaaa!

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 10:22 PM

Sitel called.
ask me whether want to extend my contract till sep nt.
i agreed cos means i'll still get to work 3 mths from now.
happy lah. i dun need go find jobs le.
Amos also gt extended but bluff me say he didn't.

and my pay was like 200+ till 18th.
compare to si hui's pay which is 600+,
mine very little la.
si hui all work more mah.
cannot complain. lols.

tomolo wan to go out before working.
it's been very long since i last went out walk walk le.
i've been going for work, stay at home, going for work den stay home again.
my routine is like tat now.
dun have my own life at all.
SIAN!!!!!!!

dear watching worldcup today with friends.
den tomolo i working.
den sunday have to pei my sister to buy bag.
conclusion = nt able to meet my hubby tis whole week!!!!!!
i'm gonna miss him alot alot le lah.
sad. =(

bye.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 12:09 PM

Thursday, June 29, 2006

i counted my pay.
only like 300 to 400 plus.
i should have work more hor?
return my mum's money, giving the household money, reteurning hel and ling's money,
i doubt i will have money left.
sad. working so hard and left myself with nth much.
sian. =/

since this month is the world cup fever,
most of the guys be it young boy, teenager, uncles or ah pehs,
there's wad they wun miss this month.
this month is like a joy to guys.
but it's a disaster to gurls,
especially when their boyfriends are watching world cup and neglecting them.
tat's the worse part of all lah.
so guys,
world cup is important,
so are your gfs if you have one.
=)

tomolo hubby is going to watch world cup with his frenz i suppose.
he is scare tat i'll be disappointed or sad or feels tat he is neglecting me,
den i tell him nt to worry and just go enjoy the matches tomolo cos he say the matches are very nice tomolo.
i cannot be tat selfish to like say, " no! you have to accompany me!"
i've been trying to be as understanding as i can...
trying hard to be his good gf.
so tat means another day wun be seeing him.
den sunday going to buy bag with my sister.
dunno how am i going to meet him la...
sian.

okie la.
gtg liao.

bye.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 10:48 PM

well. ytd meet Amos like 7.30 like tat.
kiasu ppl like me wan to chop nice seats.
and sure enough,
i gt the seats rite at the back,
forcing Amos to sit beside me as he wants to sit at the front.
ytd not many ppl work though.
the office was pretty empty.
there were queue calls and we were asked to extend till 1am.
i tink ppl were going to laugh rite at my face cos i mistaken pettie as vegetables.
only gt to koe tat when customer wan his macspicy burger add pettie,
and cos his amount cost more den 50 bucks so i asked Amos to verify.
Amos tell me tat ADD PETTIE ISN'T MEANS ADD VEGETABLES,
PETTIE MEANS EXTRA MEAT!
he laughed at me like dunno wad.=/
i'm "mountain tortoise" alright?
luckily he help me amended the mistake.
thanks Amos!!!!

Remember i said the other time tat there will be a free meal from kfc cos Amos complain?
Amos got them to send 2 breastmeat,
and i tell you,
it's so much bigger den the ones we eat the other time!
so much nicer. =)

so after work took cab back with Amos.
had to fetch hel darling back home cos she's at ting's place.
she rebonded her hair already!!!
her hair now so straight!
but i'm nt very used to see her with rebonded hair yet. =/
hahas.
den the uncle told us ghost stories.
he told us tat the old tampines road is haunted and very "dirty".
he said one of his fren fetches 2 old mens and an old lady along the lamp post one late night.
if i'm nt wrong,
they all sit behind at the back.
the taxi driver looked into the rear mirror and saw the old lady take off her head and place on her laps!!!!
he took no chances,
stop his cab along the road side and run for his dear life!
and he was sick the next day.
and when he gt back to collect his cab,
not a single soul was in sight.
the uncle who fetches us keep on pointing his finger behind the seats which is empty,
telling us the old lady and old men were sitting,
i gt a chill run down my spine cos the seats beside me were all empty cos Amos sit at the front.
perhaps the uncle saw the fear on my face and said," young lady, you are scared already rite?" and laughed out really loud and his laughter sounds really scary.
and all the way from tampines to hougang to fetch hel,
Amos and the uncle were taking turns to tell ghost stories to each other.
(-_-'')

dear was so sweet la.
he waited for me to knock off from work,
despite the fact tat he is sick.
loves him so much lah.
tat blur dear of mine forget to bring med back to camp.
hai. like tat how to get well?
HAI!!!!

heard from Amos tat we are getting pay soon le!
woo hoo!!!
gt money le!
=p

gtg le.
ciaos.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 1:32 PM

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

i was on a depressing state on my way to work.
cos at the thought tat there will be lots of calls, complains and nobody accompany me,
i become really really sian.
reach work place was okie lor.
faster go and chop one place already.
ytd ppl there are friendly.
they smile and will say hi and all.
jane was nice ytd.
she was smiling and all.
tat makes my day better already.
find one seat at the back and it was nice.
not many queue calls and most calls i answered are pretty okie.
actually wokring alone isn't a very bad idea.
i'm more concentrated tis way,
being by myself.
thought i'm kind of bored with nobody to tok to,
but like ytd like tat will be good.=)

daniel came ytd.
and was kind of tense up.
scare do wrong things.
luckily never.
den had to sign the timesheet.
he sign for me ma,
den after tat my pen which is kinda sharp,
brush across his index finger while i took the pen back.
i thought,
die liao. he sure angry and give tat kind of face one.
but he just say ouch and say,
"why like tat treat me? " in tat kind of nt serious joke joke tone.
den i immediately apologised and say bye to him.

den go 7 eleven buy chocolate for my little sister as i've promise her.
den tis guy from the store,
a customer in his late twenties to early 30s said,
" dun buy chocolate la " in chinese and left.
i was like huh, wad the hell,
i buy chocolate your pro is it?
also nt you pay.
damn pissed.

den took a cab home rite after.
the uncle was nice.
use the fastest way to send me home.
=)
such a happy day!

problem with my hubby was solved.
we talk about it.
we both apologised to each other.
he say it's his fault for nt spending enough time with me.
and i apologised for being selfish.
everything was okie now,
and our relationship got better den before.
muackies to hubby.

today will be working from 8 to 12 again.
tis time round Amos gt work,
den i gt company le.
hope today will be just like ytd.
prays hard*

gtg,
ciaos.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 1:36 PM

Monday, June 26, 2006

it's almost 11 already.
i dun feel like sleeping yet.
just feel like blogging and venting all my feelings out here.
feeling very emotional rite now.
feeling so down.

i dun have much friends tat i could pour out my heart and tell them wadever it's in my mind.
the ones i have are busy schooling and working.
everybody is so busy doing their own things.
i actually felt empty deep inside.

haii.
the time tat i needs him the most;
he's not there for me.
receive less than 10 msg from him today.
he's busy with the house warming and now soccer matches with his cousins.
i tried to be the understanding gf.
but i can't help but feeling very lonely.
perhaps being too dependent on him wasn't a very good idea.
ever since i've started working and didn't have the time tat i can spared to accompany him,
we seldom talks on the phone now and the sms we sent each other are very limited.
when i'm sleeping, he's awake;
when he's sleeping, i'm awake.
and till the time when the end of the month is drawing near,
our contact is only when the times he is off duties late at night or at home after a nice sleep.
tat's the time we talk on the phone.
it's very xin ku to be like this all the time.
i've tried to be the good gf.
but it seems tat i'm drifting far apart from the target of being the good gf.
when will we be back like we used to be?
it wun be back again.
sweet times are only for the first 6 months.
quarrels starts occuring for the next 6 months.
the sweet love will den turn to bitter love.
i believe tat hubby and i will never become like tat,
but perhaps tis is one of the obstacle we had to face in our relationship.
and i know hubby and i will overcome these together.

guess there's no point of me ranting here non stop by saying all these bo liao matters.
he wun read my blog.
and i'm glad he never.
i wun wan him to see all these.
loving him is a long term thing tat will never change.
i rem my ex saying tis in his blog when he accused me of a changing heart,
" she did this to me now and it will be your turn one day"

the msg was for my hubby from my ex.
i guess my ex will be wrong tis time.
there will not be a day tat i'll stop loving my hubby.
he let me know wad love is.
he let me know tat i'm important to him.
he let me know tat i'll be very safe with him.
he let me know tat he is the only one i wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
he is the one tat i'll never let go of his hand for as long as i live.
he is just so dear and important to me. =)

very mushy right?
i'm feeling really emotional la.
pardon me yeah?

tomolo replacing ting for work.
will be working alone.
luckily the working hours ain't tat long.
only from 8pm to 12pm.
and
hope nth crops up tomolo la.

ciaos.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 10:59 PM

suddenly dunno wad to have as my title.
never mind. it's not important.
ytd work was okie.
not much problems occur.
thank god. =)

ting, ting's fren,amos and i shared kfc's buddy meal.
we asked for delivery.
kfc delivery wasn't very good la,
i mean the food.
i just dun like the meat to be red...
you know those red red on the meat and the blood smell.
so sick la.
and you have to pay for the mayo and the green tea comes in packet forms!!!!
i was like huh when Amos told me all tat.
no wonder they dun have much business!!!
lols. macdelivery is so much better la. =D
Arifah ask me to go back at around 1.10 like tat.
guess there wasn't much calls and there's way too many ppl.
reach home like 1.50 like tat?
get everything done and sleep straight away.

wake up like 9.15 tis morning.
and i cook spagetti alright!
all by myself.
cut the hotdogs, mushrooms and the spagetti.
it's nice okie..
so pleased~
next time i cook for you gurls if there's any chances k?

thought can meet hubby and let him try my spagetti.
but he had to go to his relative's house warming with his family.
sad man. was disappointed when he told me tat he couldn't make it.
sad sad sad =(
hai. never mind,
there will be a day hor?

a song by the name " till the end" is very nice.
i dunno who sing it.
it's the song for the drama call "dou yu"
sad and nice. =)
sentimental ppl will like it for sure.

gtg.
ciaos.

TEARS EBHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 11:32 AM

Sunday, June 25, 2006

today will be working from 8 to 2 in the morning.
tat day's queue calls really very sian.

ytd meet dear at his house.
his family all go wedding dinner.
watch tv a while den sleep till 9 plus before going for dinner.
we eat zhi cha + seafood soup + xia jiao.
eat till full full and it only cost 15 bucks in all. =)
took a bus back around 10.30.
hubby meeting his frenz for the world cup.
thought can pei him for very long.
but..
never mind lah.
he had "sacrifice" his frenz in order to spend more time with me.
i can't be tat selfish to have him all by myself for 24 hours rite?
he needs to have his own freedom to watch his world cup or having dinner with frenz.
wad's more,
he said i'm always the 1st in his heart.
love him to bits la. =)

currently listening to Tanya Chua's new song " beautiful love"
it's a chinese song.
very nice.

gtg.
have to prepare for work le.
ciaos.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 4:11 PM

Saturday, June 24, 2006

i'm so tired lah.
ytd wasn't very nice for me.
gt queue calls and fussy irritating customers!!!!!
one ang moh talks so softly,
den i keep asking and asking him bout his orders.
and he got pissed and shout into the fone.
BLOODY HELL.
i dun own him lah.
his fault mah. talk so softly and nt clearly.
stupid!!!!

moz ask me where i stay, wad time go back home
and told me i'm not gonna snatch his cab again rite?
of course not lah.
tat time was a misunderstanding la.
tat taxi uncle drive and fetch us instead of moz and his fren.
he was pretty unhappy bout it.
luckily he was saying all tis in a joking tone.
like still will smile smile and tell me.
but i'm really scared of him la.
dunno why.
=/

queue calls start at like 2 plus?
and i didn't take my break at all.
so many calls to answer man.
and for like a few times i just lose my voice.
=(
work all the way to 4.
get breakfast for my sisters before going home.
took a cab back.
tat uncle took a longer route lor.
he actually follow the bus 72 route and he drive damn fast!
den half way through,
my green tea tat i've bought earlier on had already leak out of my bag!
and almost all my things inside the bag kena green tea.
i was sian half by then.
i was hoping to get something to eat den wash up and go slp one.
den i have to clean my things before sleeping.
arghhhhhhh!

bad day lah.
today maybe going to find my hubby le!
miss him so much lah...
=)

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 1:19 PM

Friday, June 23, 2006

22/06

met dear at his house around 6.30.
have dinner with his family.
his mum whip up a table of delicious food.
very nice. =)

after tat pei dear to his house there de 24 hours kopitiam.
he wanna watch world cup.
den accompany him lor.
the match ytd was between Italy and another country i dunno wad it is,
dear ask me who will win den i say Italy will win.
i die die also say Italy will win.
and ltaly win man!!!
the score is 2-0!
actually dear bet 300 one.
den his fren say Italy wun score in the second half's match already.
den his fren help him put 30 bucks only.
lols. so in all, he win 30 bucks.
i'm quite accurate bout this world cup thing as who will win.
lols.

today is hel darling's birthday.
my mum was in a foul mood tis morning.
den i never celebrate with her.
so sorry about it my hel darling!!!!!
i confirm will make it up to you next time de.
anyway.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BABE!

later going work at 10.
work from 10 to 4...
sian. nobody pei me.
will die man...
=(

hope today is just like wed like tat.
so carefree and good.
bye guys.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 5:41 PM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

BRIDE 18 IS A MUST WATCH!
VERY SWEET AND NICE.
OH MY!!!

TAT'S AMOS EATING SALAD.
YES. YOU AIN'T SEEING OR HEARING THINGS.
HE IS EATING SALAD!!!!

BAG FOR HEL.
I LOVE IT!

Amanda shouted @ 12:22 AM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

okies.
Sitel msg me ytd ask me work from 9pm to 1am.
work for ytd was really good.
i feel so relaxed working ytd lah.
wanted to find a place to sit with Amos. ( cos he can help me when i'm in trouble) =)
den reach there sian half cos all the old machines were taken!!!!!!
den all 1 seat 1 seat one.
my face had turn charcoal colour of course,
cos i'll be working alone!
den find one seat beside a gurl one.
at first thought she is those type very hard to get along wIth one,
but i'm totally wrong!
she is actually a very nice gurl.
she call herself Elle.
and she is 16 only.
talking with her is like old frenz talking like tat.
comfortable and nice.
she is so sweet lor,
she smokes and ask me accompany her go downstairs smoke.
den i was sitting at the direction where she blows her ciger,
she tell me to sit the other direction so tat i wun breath in second hand ciger.
i mean,
not all smokers are tat thoughtful yeah?
she is a nice gurl. =)

after tat dear msg me say he fetching me!
so happy la!!!!!!!!
tat makes my day already. =)
make a new fren,
no fussy customers,
no complain calls,
not much calls,
dun have the shift leader i dun like working tat nite,
den hubby fetching me back home.
damn nice!!!!!

took both sisters to ting's mum's salon there cut hair.
den i also cut my fringe after much consideration.
and yes,
i love my fringe now!
thanks to jasmine,
one of the hair dresser there. =)

den after tat rush back home prepare to meet ling.
head down to orchard.
finally bought hel's present already.
get her a bag.
i like tat bag lah...
the bags at far east are so nice man.
in fact,
most of the things selling in far east are nice.
den we buy 2 earrings also..
i get the pics le den upload..
going out with ling is so fun.
=D

and it's our 11 months anniversary le!
waited so long for this day to come.
meeting hubby tomolo le.
no,
should be today. =p
looking forward to our 1 year anniversary!

okies.
tat's about all...

ciaos.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 11:41 PM

Monday, June 19, 2006

had been working since saturday.
start work at 4 pm and end work at 2am.
replace 2 agents tat day.
i'm very tired by den already.
working for 10 hours and took 30 mins break only.

sunday work again from 8pm to 2am.
though it's not very tiring.
but i had a really bad day.
i've changed 4 computers in total.
having problems for the 1st two places.
den change to another seat at the back before changing to the middle seat with amos beside me.
i was fcuking angry already.
Amos was kind of scare when he see me in such a black face.
and the customers ytd was hell fussy, irritating and troublesome.
even the hub gives me problems!
very very bad day.
my brain nearly explode last nite.

finally see Sharon, the other sl last nite.
she look very strict to me la.
she dun smiles.
she is always sitting there at her place.
she dun like ppl put ACW.
she will scold you if you do wrong things,
in fact, she shouts at you.
okie, her voice is much much louder when you do wrong things.
in all,
just do your job nicely and without any problems and your day is save.
she wun lay her finger at you.
but with her presence around,
i had alot of pressures.

and i'll be having standby tomolo and wed.
starting work on fri from 10pm to 6am.
den sunday work 8pm to 2am.
my contract will end on 11 july.
getting another job bah.
tis job has good pay.
but it ain't a good place to work with.
with collegues tat talk among themselves,
shift leaders tat are not very good,
how to work in such an environment?
sometimes i feels rather extra.
sometimes lonely.
i guess i dun belong there.

anyway.
tis thursday is our 11 months anniversary!!!!!!
times passes very fast.
there's more months to go.=D
loving him so much.

hel's birthday is tis coming fri.
and still haven get presents for her yet.
and i dunno wad to get for her man.

okies. gtg le
bye.

tears behind that smiling face.

Amanda shouted @ 11:00 PM

Friday, June 16, 2006

ytd work was pretty okie.
nothing very very serious crops up.
just tat ytd gt queue call.
51 waiting calls.
faints-
i was picking up calls non stop.
nearly lost my voice. =/
but compare to ting last time 100 waiting calls.
mine is just small case.

off work exactly at 2.
Amos accomapany me to wait for ting n sihui to come.
wait den they decide to go up to Sitel to watch world cup.
so Amos and i took cab back.
he went home while i meet hel and ling.
slack there for like around an hour before i buy breakfast for my sisters.
took cab home again.
have to thanks ling and hel for accompany me at the time where most ppl are sleeping.
i'm broke from taking cab here and there.

today never work.
i ask ting and sihui help me find ppl replace me.
they ask around but nobody is available.
i wan meet my dear today mah.
so long nv see him already.
i thought i might have to work today already.
den ting msg me in the morning tat she had find someone who can replace me already!
i must really say a big THANK YOU to ting and sihui.
thanks gurls. =)
just now a gurl by the name of Ggie called and asked me if i could replaced her tomolo from 4pm to 8pm.
i agreed already.
have to work lah. =)

okies. gtg le.
ciaos ppl.
=D

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 3:26 PM

Thursday, June 15, 2006

i'm working today!
actually is to help to replace a guy who last min cannot make it lah.
but i'll be working alone from 8pm to 2 am.
ting all not working.
nobody there to help me when i need them liao. =(
guess i've been very dependent on them already.
i have to learn to be independent!
but i scared. =/

ytd nite didn't get to see hubby.
i'm so sad lah!!!!! ='(
wad's worse is he didn't call or msg me the whole nite.
in fact, till now i still hadn't heard from him. =(
i'm dead worried for him...
scare gt things happen to him etc.
couldn't get through to him at all.
his prepaid nv registered so call him also auto dun have one.
only can sms him. msg like at least 4-6,
still no replies or calls.
he said he will call me...
but he didn't...
why can't he understand how i feels?
it's not the first time such things happen...
he told me there wun be a second time....
but den..
it still happens. =(
i'm nt angry at all.
just disappointed and feeling extremely sad!
i know maybe he is really tired so never call.
but at least let me koe he is safe and sound.
even if he calls for 1 min,
i'll be very happy le.
he dun koe how worried i had been.
and my imagination just runs wild again and again.
result in crying my heart out in the middle of the nite.
dunno why i feels this way...
perhaps i love him really too much already...='(
and,

I MISS HIM SO SO SO MUCH...

hope this doesn't affects my mood and concentration later on at work.
or i'll do alot of mistakes one.
den kana scolded. =s
prays hard*
and hope my hubby will call or sms me real soon.
how. i miss him so...

alrights.
wish me luck later on.
bye bye!

Amanda shouted @ 4:09 PM

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

ling and cia. my darlings!!!!!!

it's just another normal day.
half of the day is gone.
Sitel called me 2 times today.
but i dunno it's luck or wadever,
they always called when i'm charging my phone.
ting said they got time slot for me...
den told me to call Sitel back.
den Amos call me ask whether Sitel had called me,
cos he also gt a call from them but he was sleeping!
he called them back and they say they already have ppl to take over le.
Amos like wanted to work so badly lah.
he tell me over the phone tat he need the money.
lols.
workaholic man.
not like me slack my day through.
i was hoping Sitel dun call me today.
hubby today off mah..
den i wan to see him so much.
he say he will come and look for me.
but till now i still didn't get his call or sms.
4 days never meet le lea..
pretty sad lah...

bf is important to me.
so do my darling frenz!
i love you gurls so damn much!!!!!

hel darling.

this 5 years plus de friendship is very precious to me.

thanks for being there for me whenever i needs you.

thanks for being a good listener.

thanks for tolerating my hot temper.

thanks for going crazy with me.

thanks for accompany me to places and places.

thanks for everything you've done for me.

ling darling.

we have been friends since we were just 11 year old kids.

we used to get jealous over this and tat.

to tink back everything now,

it's very funny. isn't it?

though we might not be very very close,

but

thanks for being there for me when i needs you.

thanks for lending a listening ear to me.

thanks for cheering me up when i'm sad.

thanks for tolerating my nonsense.

thanks for being so generous towards me. ( to anyone of us actually!)

thanks for being so thoughtful.

thanks for asking amos to pass me your jacket cos you scare i might need it.

thanks for being my kai xin guo.

thanks for everything.

ting darling.

we only get close when we were like in sec 3? ( if i nv rem it wrongly.)

we pass letters though we may be in different classes hor?

the sweet times when we were still in sch. =D

thanks for being the 120% sweet and caring gurl among us.

thanks for being so the one who distributes us food first before giving yourself.

thanks for being my listening ear too. =)

thanks for being the one who is willing to eat pizza hut with me.

thanks for being there almost whenever you can. ( sometimes she is really busy!)

thanks for being the one who always agrees to eat zhi cha with me.

thanks for introducing me the mac job and takes care of me when i need your help.

thanks for everything too.

though i might be older ( by months) den you gurls.

but it seems tat you all are the ones taking care of me...

i koe i'm useless lah.

i should be the one taking care of you all instead.

thanks for everything gurls.

muackies muackies.

i wanna say thanks to the following ppl too.
you ppl makes my life colourful. =)

pei shan ( my best fren in bukit ho swee pri )

josephine ( mei nu )

karen ( cutie)

sihui ( yu da no.1 fan)

jolyna ( mojojojo)

shu yuan ( future dragon boat leader)

siew peng ( smart gurl)

melissa ( gurl with powerful voice)

geok ting ( petite but fierce gurl)

kennedy ( good guy fren)

hui da ( kor tat is good)

Amos ( for helping me out during work)

zong kun ( pri sch classmate/gd fren)

classmates since 2001-2004.

there's so many other ppl i would like to mention.

but really alot lah.

sorry if i never mention your names.

pardon me ok?

in other words,

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!

GTG.

TEARS BEHIND THAT SMILING FACE.

Amanda shouted @ 7:54 PM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

haii. early morning received Amos sms.
i'm on standby AGAIN!!!!
Amos got to work though.
lucky him. =)
cos there's too much staffs le.
you had to be lucky to be choosen for work.
heard from ting tat most of the ppl working are malays.
and i'm sian half already.
i can't just stayed home and wait.
i need stable job lah....
i'm like 90% sure tat they will put me as standby tomolo, the day after and the day after after.
at first of course i'm fuming lah.
like u sign contract with them den they never give you work.
but to tink back,
there's no way getting angry over it.
tat is the working society lah.
you can't do anything unless you are the boss lah.
just let nature takes its course lor.

muz seek for other jobs liao lah.
if not once the 1 mth contract is over,
i'm jobless again.
no job den no money.
thought tis mac operator job will be a long term one....
but now...
sad man.

i wan to go out with my darlings lah.
i wan to go out with hubby to cycle.
i wan to spend more time staying home to let my ah gong ah ma koe i'm home.
i wan more money to spend.
i wan a good and stable job with nice collegues and boss.

guess i can only wait.
=(

tears behind that smiling face.

Amanda shouted @ 10:39 PM

Monday, June 12, 2006

just as i've expected.
they did not call Amos and i to work.
bet they will put us as standbys tomolo.
this job cannot be a long term one if they continues to like tat...
and because i work night shifts more which makes me lose more sleeps,
dark eye bags are getting more and more obvious,
pimples are popping out like never before.
sian lah. they make me look very haggard one.
have to bao yang already.

today dear meet frenz den couldn't pei me.
one of his gd fren transferring to another camp.
which means they will have lesser opportunities to meet up.
so the outing can means it's a farewell outing bah.
oh my. i miss him already.
really one day cannot see him will die man.

glad tat Amos and ling are okie now.
they have been quarrelling because amos dun have enough time to accompany her.
all because of the stupid work lah.
dunno on which day amos only manage to sleep like 3-4 hours only?
cos he was on night shift. den ton with us till morning den go to work at novena to work den evening meet us to go work again.
resulting him with bloodshoot eyes, having endless coughing.
he say he needs to strive hard for work.
he too ping ming already lah.
sat tok with him alot.
he really really love ling alot lah.
from wad he says..
i'm touched.
he is a good guy lah.
=)

okie lah.
have to go to sleep.
tomolo maybe have work.
bye bye.

tears behind that smiling face.

Amanda shouted @ 10:29 PM

had been working recently.
met all kinds of customers.
some very nice and patient ones.
some very nasty and troublesome ones.
have been learning and memorising those scripts and the rite procedures.
though i'm not very good at it yet,
but i'm getting better day by day already.
have been doing my job well.
i never eat snake and all.
but why am i so unlucky?

one of the SL there,
let's call him M.
in my view,
M was very bias.
why i say tat lea?
of course i have my own reasons.

okies. he see ppl den give jobs one.
you see, he is the only one who plan schedule one.
he can do anything he likes in the schedule.
he likes tat person or on very good terms with tat person,
he confirm will have jobs for them without failed one.
there are more den 40 ppl working as part timers,
but why is it tat it's always Amos and me who have to be the ones going home early and on standby?
it's getting out of hand lah,
Amos and i were on standby today.
and in tat schedule,
we were suppose to work from 8pm to 6am in the morning today!!!
den on sat, we work at 8 and one of the SL there told us to go back at 11 plus!
M told the other SL to get us back one.
he speak in malay. lucky amos koe how to listen lah.
it's like. if you have so many ppl,den why bother to hire more and put them to work as you wish?
we can get better job lor.
i've seen so much when i'm working.
some ppl there just eat snakes.
go smoke as they like.
put ACW( away) as they like and walk around inside the office.
and they never get scolded at all lor.
WAD THE HELL IS ALL THIS?

i can assure to u all now tat after one month contract is over.
they will say,
"thank you for working with us but we have enough ppl already.
if we need ppl we will let you koe again".
tat will be wad they say lor.
they need ppl now cos of worldcup lor.
after world cup,
they will definately say bye bye to you no matter how well u did in your work.
tis is the working society.
they like you. you stayed.
they dun like you. den say bye bye.
i dun wanna tok about it le lah.
it just spoils my entire mood.

anyway. sat hubby came over to tamp de mac there and look for me.
tat's the day when amos and i were sent off at 11 plus.
so sweet of him. he actually came all the way from PS down to tamp.
he could go back home after going out with his frenz.
but he came. so sweet lah. love love him lots. =)
watched the soccer match till 5 den took cab home.
will be only seeing him at his next off day.
i miss him lah. =(

will update again.
ciaos.

tears behind that smiling face.

Amanda shouted @ 5:19 PM

Thursday, June 08, 2006

erm. i'll make my entry short and sweet.

5/6

meet hel, ling darling for ktv!
den ting and mian jie join us shortly after.
had "zhi cha" as dinner in kovan.
gt myself a green jacket frm IP zone for only $25!
i want the tank tops and t shirts frm there lah.
shooo nice man.

6/6

ling, ting and amos accompany me to the interview for the mac operator job.
and I'VE GOT THE JOB!!!!!
Amos interviewed too and he gt in also.
poor ling had to go back home alone.
sorry darling ling.
started training rite away.
everything is so confussing and complicated.
luckily i've gt my mentor to help out. =)

7/6

had to work frm 9 am to 9 pm.
and i'm very tired cos lack of sleeps.
meet amos and one of the trainee, amy and go work together.
yeah. we are the triple As'!!
lols.
from 9 am train till like 2 plus before getting on my own.
everything were still okie and in control.
i've answerd 70++ phone calls from 2 plus till 9 excluding dinner 1 hour.
some customers are very nice and patient.
some were nasty and fussy.
some were alright but rude.
and there were some who gt better nothing to do other playing with phones.
met all sorts of ppl on the phone.
it's a great experience la.
will be working till 11 july and see who the shift managers said,
as in whether to continue our contract or not.
will see how it takes. =D

and the ppl working there were pretty nice.
they sure help u if you gt problems la.
good yeah? =)

will be working on fri 7 pm to 6 am.
i had no idea if i can take it not.
hopefully i can lah....

tml off day.
going cycling with hubby and his frenz.
will update again.

ciaos.

tears behind that smiling face.

Amanda shouted @ 12:57 AM