WHEN NOTHING ELSE MATTERS

Friday, August 25, 2006

okie. firstly,
i need to apologise to everyone who have been reading my blog.
sorry for changing my add again.
sorry for any inconvenience.

alright. a guy took the pic of me and my bf and post it in his blog.
in his blog,
he called me a BITCH and wanted to get hitman to bash up my guy,
he's giving 5000 bucks for ppl who wants to kill my guy for him.
this guy is none other but my ex, the bastard.

the following entry is wad he had post.

Revenge.

The only comfortable reason I exist, is to eliminate anyone who trespasses against me. I still remember the lord's prayer I used to chant every week during assembly.This phrase is from it" And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive them that trespass against us."Geez... few years back, this phrase dissappeared from my dictionary. I don't understand forgiveness anymore... remember I once said 6 months later for revenge? I don't think time's up yet... but exams are like over tml? So I guess I have a little time to start planning about my revenge liao.1. Ken. If you're so fucking stupid to think its still for that bitch, WRONG! Its because of the fact of he asking 30+ people whacking me up when it was 1v1. Never liked foul players... so he shall... die. Simply as that. Hiring hitman to kill this guy, 5000bucks. =D Pic here...

( pic of me and my bf )

2. Don't want mention name lea... damn bad kind. That day I blogged that, 90+ viewerships. o.OThe people around me are just so forgiving all the time, makes me hang my head low sometimes. Sry to tell u this, I am not that forgiving type. =D3. There are 2 people, who I don't wish to include in this list. They hurt me bad enuff... but perhaps partially is my fault. I don't know... see how.Don't offend me, be my friend instead... people who offended me never had a good ending. Test, proven and qualified by ECG. Hahahaha...

okies. after the spar thing between my bf and him,
(pls look for previous entries to get a clearer picture of all these.)
i've change the add of my blog,
as i thought i could start all anew and forgetting the bad incident.
so i dunno where the hell he get the add of my blog,
took one of the pic and paste it in his blog,
saying that he wanted revenge and calling me a bitch and wanted to hire hitman to kill my bf.
i've talk to friends around asking them for advices,
they asked me to ignore him.
so i thought,
they were rite about this.
i dun wan anything to do with tat guy anymore.

let me recall the whole incident when i'm still together with tat guy.
tat was the most critical time we were facing.
he just enter poly and completely had no time for me.
modules, projects, homework had taken up most of his time.
i said i'll wait for him. i was very firm bout it den.
i got this habit of reading his blog almost daily,
like to koe how he is like, how he's doing and all,
but when i read his entries,
saying lesbians are cute, looking around his lecture hall at gals,
treating me coldly, not contacting me.
all these just left me feeling unsure of the relationship.
but i still held on to it.
hoping there will be a change in him and we will be back like wad we used to be.
it was when someone told me one day tat he liked a gurl in his class/sch and had already confessed his feelings towards her.
from tat moment onwards,
i koe my heart is dead.
i've waited for him and tat is how he treat me?
during this period of time,
i koe my current guy.
he was there all along for me,
giving me lots of support and encouragements.
not long after, i've had feelings for him already.

i break things clear with him before ken becomes my guy.
at first we still can be friends, talk on msn,
everything was alright.
den he started to say he wanted to spar in his blog.
not knowing wad does spar means,
i asked ken.
and tat was how the whole spar started,
(pls refer to older entries.)
and after a few months later,
he wants revenge.

it's been 1 year since we last broke up.
why is he back again claiming tat he wants revenge?
and ppl,
most of the things he said ain't true.
he had exaggerates so much in his blog,
eg. there are like around 10 ppl whacking him the other time,
and he said there are 30 plus over whacking him.
i'm sure most of the things he said are not true.
i dun see any reason why my bf wants to lie to me about.

now all i wanted is for him to remove the pic in his blog.
but there's no way to get him take the pic away.
perhaps i'll just let everything rest.
as long as he leave me and ken alone,
i couldn't care much or less bout him.
and if i'm a bitch like wad he said,
he is the big time bastard.

he is the unfaithful one first.
but claims tat i'm the one being unfaithful.
why can't he just get on with his life,
instead of thinking getting revenge all the time?

i just can't be bothered with him.

BASTARD.
JUST LEAVE US ALONE!

Amanda shouted @ 12:35 PM