WHEN NOTHING ELSE MATTERS

Monday, October 30, 2006

it's been exactly 10 days since i last blog.
schedule for work was like so packed,
all i do everyday was to go to work and sleep,
and the same routine just continue like tat everyday.
for 6 days i work a total of 50 hours.
recently there's alot more calls den befor,
maybe there's soccer matches or wadever,
and maybe tat nowadays ppl gets hungry more easliy,
or maybe the fact tat macdelivery is the only 24 hours restaurant.
tons of thoughts just go through my mind.

i'm like a walking corpse for these couple of days.
can you imagine working long hours and not getting enough sleeps?
my eye bags, dark eye circles and pimples are appearing due to irregular sleep time,
it just gets pretty bad when cosmetics can't cover my flaws!!!!
and who's gonna responsible for all these?
everyday when i look myself into the mirror,
i see a pair of super tired eyes with dark circles, dull skin and pimples,
i gets crazy and wish my eyes were playing tricks on me.

there's like so many queue calls and customers were getting fussy and all.
for example, i work one morning,
and this fcuking chinese auntie gives troubles to me.
she wants her big breakfast's muffin bread not to be burnt, egg to be soft
and fcuking wants her coffee to be thick and well done, to be freshly brew and send over to her!
and she keeps repenting it to me though i've already indicated tat in the delivery instruction,
keep on ask me do i understand do i understand not,
and i just raise my voice a little and say i know and she say i'm very rude.
so i tok very nicely to her though i'm already fuming with anger and
fcuk her man, ask me to repent again to her!!!!!!! (i've repented like at least twice to her)
and you tink it's the end?
definatly not!!!
at around 12 i got her call again despite there's so many other agents.
she complain say her food is not there yet andf say if the food is cold she's nt gonna take it,
say wad she will vomit and all.
so i just just ask her to hold on while i call the restaurant.
and the stupid restaurant takes forever to answer the call,
and all the manager's answer to me is she will get back to the fussy customer.
so i return to the line and the customer starts to scold/say me in chinese,
why take so long to call the restaurant? eat one food so difficult meh?
so i keep my cool and tell her nicely tat the restaurant took a long time to pick up the phone and also to inform her tat the manager is calling her,
and she just anyhow accuses me of complaining to the manager,
say wad i tell the manager she complain and all,
which the fact tat i didn't.
of course i'm got so angry i lose my cool and raise my voice and say i didn't.
and FCUK heR, SHE STILL DUN BELIEVE MY WORDS!!!!!
she even say she's going to ask the manager whether i've complain and i say okie,
she just hang up my call like tat!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let her check all she wants, i did nothing wrong at all.
FCUKING OLD WOMAN!!!!
wants soft egg and muffin not to be burnt, make yourself lah.
wants freshly brew coffee, brew yourself lah,
i wish the coffee is hot till it burnts your tongue and forbids you to talk for a month!!!!!!!!
and there's this auntie who order and talk to me at the same time,
and i tink i was on the phone with her for at least 5-10 mins!!!
she starts telling me tat as a buddhist, it's a sin to waste food and all.
well, but after all, she is better den the old woman!!!

well. at work, things just ain't tat good already lah.
they recruit more and more ppl.
never mind. forget it.

just some pictures i took with hubby when i'm out with him. =)

normal looking(fat and chubby) and distorted looking ( i tink i look like a fox)

love him to bits!!!! loves* and me looking very fair. (edited)

Amanda shouted @ 4:38 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

went to work ytd to replace madelenie.
there were so many queue calls,
i dun have the time to rest a single bit.
ros actually asked me to extend till 2am.
i was like huh, the working hours so long,
wad's more i'm meeting dear already.
so ros ask me to extend till 8pm.
within 5 hours i gt like 100 over calls.
so damn tiring. =(

dear was being sweet enough to come and fetch me off from work.
his old injury at the ankle was creating troubles again.
and now his ankle is swollen and he walks with a limp.
he had difficulties walking and sometimes couldn't balance himself well.
i had to be by his side to hold on to him just in case he falls.
his mother will be bringing him to see the doctor today.
hope his ankle get well soon, it just aches my heart to see him in pain.
poor dear. =(

the day before i had an arguement with my mother.
and i have not been talking to her for the past 2 days.
which was good, at least i wun get to quarrel with her.

sunday will be our 15 months anniversary!!
so happy lah. we have went through alot lah.
and i cherish the relationship with him.

just love him loads lah.=)

Amanda shouted @ 2:24 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

the haze was indeed annoying!!
the weather turns freaking warm and humid,
and all i wanted to was to stay at home, inside my air con room.
i dun wan to breathe those unhealthy air into my lungs!

went out with dear ytd.
we had dinner together and we decided to sing at hougang cc.
dear will be very free this week and next week cos he took off days!!!
so happy bout it lah. =D

went to work today in formal attire.
for god dunno how long,
i have not be wearing formal..
just because there were visitors coming,
those who were working before 6pm have to wear office attire.
no jeans were allowed so i put on a skirt instead,
and it's the very 1st time i wore a skirt to work alright.

shu fen was asking me i wear so nice later going out is it,
i was yeah, feeling real happy cos dear say he will pick me up from work.
den it happen to be such a concidence,
he had to attend his friend's grandfather's funeral so he couldn't fetch me.
imagine my disappointments when i receive his msg. =(
i still though we could have dinner together follow by a movie or just walking around.

too bad, it's another disappointment.

so i carried a heavy heart back home feeling so empty.
it gets super lonely when i had be return home alone for like 30-45 mins of the bus journey.
and i was damn troubled by the big pimple on my face.
i just dunno wad to do with it.
it's damn ugly i tell you.

well. wun be working tomolo but will be replacing Madeleine on thursday though.
haii. i miss dear so much now.

Amanda shouted @ 10:01 PM

Monday, October 16, 2006

my mood become slightly better already.
went to dear's house to have dinner with his family on saturday.
i love dear's mum's soups!! got to drink good soups over there. hehe.
my mum dun really brew soups and all.
but at least she knows how to cook now.
she used to dunno anything bout cooking one,
she slowly slowly take up cooking ever since my grandma become ill.
i respect her for her never say die attitude. lols.

dear was bugging me to learn cooking from my mum,
and cook for him to eat!
dear and his brillant idea.
=)

i muz really say a big THANK YOU to LITING.
thank you so so so so much for helping me find replacement.
if not for you, i had to go to work today already.
i treat you eat spring chicken okie? LOLS.

out with dear to catch a movie at toa payoh.
we watch rob-b-hood.
it's the 2nd time we watch the show.
cos we both love the little baby in the show.
the baby was so adorable lah.
dear and i just love babies alot.
they are so cute lah. =D

well. tat's bout it i guess.
bye ppl.

Amanda shouted @ 10:48 AM

Friday, October 13, 2006

life is getting more and more stressful.
getting real paranoid.
it's like super long since i feel tat way.
i dunno why i'm feeling tis way,
maybe period so getting damn emotional. damn insecure. damn paranoid.
i just wish life would be much easier for me.
i'm getting tired...

dear will be busy with his job.
and i doubt he will have time for me.
how i wish, sometimes,
he would know exactly how i'm feeling.
=(

happen to go to my ex's blog.
yeah, the same guy who took the pic of dear and me and paste it in his blog.
i am glad tat he had found his love already,
the gurl who had always been with him. =)
though i might hate the things he had done before,
but upon seeing the neo print he took with his gurl,
the dark side of him had disappear,
and i saw the jin long who is so in love.
although we may no longer be friends,
i'll give my full blessings to him.

my life had been totally mess up.
as i've said, i got all paranoid.
might appear as though i'm perfectly alright,
but i'm not okie at all.
it must be the paranoid who is the culprit,
causing me to feel as if i have nobody to cares bout me,
like i'm the only one left by myself.
damn.
i hate tat feeling.

when will i actually feel loved again?

i miss the old times, badly.

Amanda shouted @ 10:52 PM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

nothing can change who i am.
i'll still be the same old.........

AMANDA TAN.

to all my friends,
thanks to each and every one of you who had been there for me when i need someone.

to my family,
thanks for giving me such a heart warming and happy family.

and to my love,
thanks for everything you have done for me.

i love you guys so much!!!

loves loves*

Amanda shouted @ 1:04 AM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

i'm back once again.
i intended to blog a few days ago but i just dun have the mood to.
life for me was getting so dead.
was working and working and working.
time spend with my friends, bf and family gets alot lesser.
sometimes i just miss them so much.
i wonder wad am i working for?
i suppose ppl work just merely for the sake of money.
i dun deny i'm one of them though.
how i wish when i wake up one morning and my bed is full of money!!!!
it will be excellent to not-to-work and get money.
well. it can only be a dream.

30 sep

stayed home all day.
juliana (my sister) went out with her friends.
so left my little sister and me.
it's been very long since i last stay at home on a saturday.
cos normally i'll go out on my off days either with friends or my bf.
so as to say i had not spend much time with my little sister.
she is so happy tat i'll stayed home tat day.
so i accompany her, played with her and we take tons of crazy pictures.
we act emo, jump up high and all. lol.

1st oct

work from 5pm to 2am.
den meet hel to go cineleisure wanted to catch a movie one.
but last show was at 2.35am so we missed it.
den in the end go to k box to sing,
sing from 3 plus to around 6am in the morning,
after which we went back home already.

4th oct

meet my dear around my house here.
den just when i wanted to open the door and see my beloved,
i saw 2 firemen rushing here and there,
men were shouting all over, the atmosphere was super tense.
so i hurried down and saw many ppl crowding around,
firemen were running here and there, shouting super loud,
so i faster call hubby and ask him where he is cos there's too many ppl,
and i can't find him.
den realised tat the unit 2 doors away was on fire.
there were no ppl in the house at tat point of time.
luckily nobody was hurt during this fire.
heard from my mum tat they left the iron on a wooden table and it caught fire.
i mean, can't they check properly everything was in order before leaving the house or something?
and hello,
they should have a proper ironing thing wad, where got ppl use table to iron one?
table is for having breakfast, lunch and dinner one lor.
it's so dangerous lah.
these china ppl just very irresponsible lah.
btw, the firemen are cute. awww!!

was on standby on thursday and work ytd.
suppose to work today one.
but woke up today with diahorrea.
cos at home got medicine so dun intend to see doctor.
so i tried looking for replacements again,

BUT AGAIN,
NONE WAS FREE!!!

it's damn hard looking for replacements,
especially it's a weekend.
so left with no choice but to see a doc cos i'm really very uncomfortable.
but the clinics in hougang point and the one is blk 916 were close!!!
they only open for half day. damn.
so the nearest one will be the 24 hours clinic near ting's house.
the doctor say my chang wei was infected = fa yan.
and i'm inside the clinic for less den 5 mins,
they give me my mc and 2 packets of tablets and it cost me 35 bucks!!!
so expensive lah. =(
if somebody could replace me den my wallet wun have a big hole le...

oh ya ya ya...

the stupid indonesia lah,
burn wad burn, make the weather in singapore so bad.
the haze was so thick tat i find breathing so difficult lah.
the PSI highest was like 150!!!!
so crazy lor.it's so bad for health lah.
hope it gets better lah...

okies. show time for lots of pictures!!!

Pictures of geraldine and me.