life is getting more and more stressful. getting real paranoid. it's like super long since i feel tat way. i dunno why i'm feeling tis way, maybe period so getting damn emotional. damn insecure. damn paranoid. i just wish life would be much easier for me. i'm getting tired...
dear will be busy with his job. and i doubt he will have time for me. how i wish, sometimes, he would know exactly how i'm feeling. =(
happen to go to my ex's blog. yeah, the same guy who took the pic of dear and me and paste it in his blog. i am glad tat he had found his love already, the gurl who had always been with him. =) though i might hate the things he had done before, but upon seeing the neo print he took with his gurl, the dark side of him had disappear, and i saw the jin long who is so in love. although we may no longer be friends, i'll give my full blessings to him.
my life had been totally mess up. as i've said, i got all paranoid. might appear as though i'm perfectly alright, but i'm not okie at all. it must be the paranoid who is the culprit, causing me to feel as if i have nobody to cares bout me, like i'm the only one left by myself. damn. i hate tat feeling.
when will i actually feel loved again?
i miss the old times, badly.
Amanda shouted @ 10:52 PM
the_gurl
Amanda
19 years old
attached to her dear boy
she's no longer the little gurl.
she_loves
hubby
sisters(hel,ling and ting)
friends
family
moo moo
she_hates
ppl who break promises
liars
betrayers
backstabbers
hypocrites
her_wishes
forever love
maintaining the relationship between us
having a stable job
being happy with my life.
having the ppl i loves all by my side.