WHEN NOTHING ELSE MATTERS

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

tried a lot of times before getting this new blogger done.
have been working which feels pretty good,
not that i like work but at least it keeps me busy.
get to know a new girl which i somehow forgots her name,
she's a malay girl who is new in sitel,
she was being trained by me cos she got some wrong addresses and all the previous days.
she explained to me, telling me that actually it's not really her fault.
u see, some ppl are trying to get her do wrong things so tat she will be scolded or even worse,
get warning letters and all.
that's how scheming one can get when they dislike you.
hearing her story just makes me feels so angry, at the same time sorry for her.
well, wad goes around comes around..=/
and one of the shift leader dun seems to like her, tat's from my point of view though.
sitel ppl makes me have goosebumps all over...
why can't ppl be real?

suppose to meet hel and ting later but i last min decided not to join them.
i'm very tired already. ytd work 8 hours with only one 15 mins break,
somemore not exactly a break when i need to help the girl see if she got do anything wrong not.
learnt that she likes to watch chinese shows and she likes Elvin ng,
the guy who acts as niu lang on 9pm show.
she's like so crazy over him lah. lols..
and i show him wu zui's pic,
and she goes, he so handsome!!!
lols...

will be lonely tomolo.
yes, it's valentine's day yet i'm spending it alone.
he is in camp from 8am to like 6.30pm.
u guys must be thinking can celebrate after that wad,
but he reach home at least 7 or 8 plus,
there's no point of meeting.
he said he can't get leaves too cos too many ppl take already.
how sad it is when you have a bf/gf yet they can't spend that special day with you?
i dunno if i wants to go out tomolo not..
i dun wanna see girls with bouquet of roses,
looking pretty, smiling so happily while helding their boyfriend's hand.
the sight of that makes me wants to cry...
the sight of couples everywhere makes me envious.
i feel terrible yet there's nothing i can do...
he apologised but the emptyness i felt can't be filled.
i hate to be be alone without him. ='(

my 19th birthday is like 5 days away..
ppl will be like excited and happy.
but i feel nothing within me.
my birthday will be another lonely one.
no friends to celebrate with, no gatherings nor dinner together.
and at most a few close friends will remember only.
and i doubt my boy can celebrate much for me when my birthday falls on the 1st day of cny..
no shops will be opened too...
very pathetic i can say.

forget bout all that.
i dun see a point to rant anymore on how unfair or how pityful i am.
will be making a card for my dearest boy despite the fact that we won't be spending valentine's together.
work on thursday and friday!!!

Amanda shouted @ 12:42 PM