i'm feeling super moody and hurt. how can my grandmother said such hurtful words to me when i didn't purposely do it? the words she said stabs me hard in my heart... i respect her for who she is and why can't she leaves my pride alone? i cried badly, at least for a good 10 to 15 mins. i just can't stop crying , my heart aches like hell. i just can't get those words out of my mind, it just keeps on going on and on, yes, i know i had to respect her but pls, i'm make of blood and i can feels. though it might seems nothing to her but it really really hurts me, anybody understands how i'm feeling rite now? i feel so unwanted and unloved. it's extremely terrible. i hate it.
i wish boyfriend is right beside me now, hugging him makes me feel really secure. although he's not with me but the sms he sent me after i tell him i feel so unloved makes me feels so fortunate to have him. he said, nobody support, i will. no one loves you, i do. he is so so sweet can? tat's the reason why i love him so damn much! =D
i feel bad for not taking over ting's shifts. but i really hate working night shifts now. i dunno wad the heck makes me feel this way. and i dunno why sitel now wants contract le lor. damn irritating lah. cos when ppl can't make it, they have to find high and low just for replacements, to make it even worse, nobody is available!!!!! i really dun like the system la. it sucks, totally!
maybe meeting boyfriend tomolo. he's asking me to decide again. hate making plans and decisions. i'm just too lazy to think! =p
check my schedule and i dun have any work slots!!! WTH?
Amanda shouted @ 12:28 AM
the_gurl
Amanda
19 years old
attached to her dear boy
she's no longer the little gurl.
she_loves
hubby
sisters(hel,ling and ting)
friends
family
moo moo
she_hates
ppl who break promises
liars
betrayers
backstabbers
hypocrites
her_wishes
forever love
maintaining the relationship between us
having a stable job
being happy with my life.
having the ppl i loves all by my side.