WHEN NOTHING ELSE MATTERS

Saturday, March 24, 2007

just came back from work like half an hour ago?
suppose to work from 6pm to 10pm one,
den katherine ask me to replace her for 2 hours so i went in to work earlier.
den thought i can go back at 10pm den jason ask me to extend for him another 2 hours.
luckily i got take half an hour de break or really can die one...=/

yesterday went to the study and work talk with dear at NTUC centre.
there were like at least 10 security guards in the building.
and dear and i need to key in our nric no to get through.
even the lift inside also have a mini tv lah, damn high tech!
i find all these very bo liao la,
i mean hello? it's just a talk, but why are we going through so much for nothing?
den nvm, the talk alot of ppl attend lor.
ppl from 20 plus all the way to at least 50 or 60 plus.
many of us had to stand throughout the talk cos the seats are full.
this talk was conducted by a guy who have alot diplomas or wadever he have la.
he crap alot lah. talk those unrelated topics,
it's a complete waste of time la.
and will ppl use ya ya ya at the end of every sentence if he/she have perfect english?
unfortunately, tat guy was acting ang moh or whoever he wants la,
oh please, he look like a security guard more den someone who had lots of diplomas la.
tat's my point of view, cos i just dun like him and hence,
i dun see a need to listen to him though i admit some are really facts la.
dear thought i'm also going to have interviews with the consultants but i'm not joining harriet business school.
first, my aunt said the course is too much for me to cope.
secondly, the fees are really expensive.
thirdly, partly because i dun wanna waste their hard earned money again.
den boy and i had a slight argument bout the schools thingy,
it's not tat i dun wanna study with him,
i can't afford to like waste any more money le...
boy was quite fed up with me lah,
but thankfully, we are fine after some cooling down.
so we sit down at a table under my block and we had a really good talk over this school matter.
we talk for at least an hour trying to solve our problems,
dear really enlightened me alot.
he make me realised i had to study double times harder den other ppl.
he make me know tat we are striving hard now for a good life in future.
stories after stories, i've heard bout his friend,
from a EM3 student to study ite follow by poly and uni,
he is a giordano manager now with good pay, i tink.
another friend of his, who is a ah beng,is a manager of k box now who earns 4000 plus.
he's like saying, my friends all pai kias can do it, and you a guai guai nu why cannot do it?
i find it so true as in why ppl can do but why i can't?
i've sorted things out, i thought about it the whole of last night,
i understand, finally.
dear and i need not be studying in the same school but we still striving hard for our future.
well, dear most pro will be going to harriet business school which i'll take boston business scool instead.
i can't be depending alot on my boy anymore, i have to learn to be independent.
and there's a quote which says, " absence makes the hearts grew fonder"!!!!
i dun wanna disappoint my family and my dear boy le.
but i still dunno which course to take la.... damn confusing can?
fickled minded, just dunno wad i wants exactly..=s

the night is getting darker.
the night is so quiet.
here i am, all alone,
saying good night to all. =)

Amanda shouted @ 1:19 AM