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Thursday, April 26, 2007

was surprised that dear had baked me a cake for our 21st month anniversary!!!
it was his 1st attempt and it looked pretty good eh?
the top left hand corner of the cake was eaten by me.=p
thanks dear for making an effort, i love it!!!
and of course i love you too, my dear care bear! <3

anyway. my blue black is better,
and the skin had peel off slowly off my neck and forehead.
oh yeah, i almost forgot,
i got scald by the iron around my elbow.
damn, i've got 2 ugly scars tat's gonna be there for as long as i live! =(
and finally, i got all 3 bad things happened to me once and for all.
i'm lucky that they are just minor injuries for god blesses me!

ytd went out with dear and i'm so happy!
it's been quite some time since we last went out.
we decided to catch a movie and i'm touched tat dear still remember tat i wanna watch 200 pounds beauty!
the show was fantastic and i loved it so much la!!!!!
the story was good, the songs were very nice and some of the scenes keeps me laughing!!!!!
can't help but broke down in tears near the end of the show...
it's hard for a show to actually make me in tears...
this show really touches my heart so much....
dear was so mean la, he laughed at me upon seeing me in tears!!!!!!!
in conclusion,
it's a show which you wouldn't want to miss!!!

had dinner with him after the show and decided to return back to around my house area.
everything was okie till he said he need to go back already and it's only like 10 plus!
he were to meet his old friends up to celebrate his last day of a freedom man,
as in because he's getting married today.
perhaps getting too emotional and paranoid,
i actually break down for a second time,
i did not tell dear wad's the cause of it even though he keep asking.
i just sit there and cry.
he called his friends and tell them he's not going over already.
all just because of me.
i feel damn guilty after tat for he sacrifices the time with his secondary buddies and stay with me.
i know he must have feel damn fed up but keep mute to himself.

he tried cheering me up with all kinds of things but i still look very sian.
he had been very patient with me all the while despite my cold attitude to him.
den he asked if i wanna go back.
i didn't say a word den pick up my bag and leave.
i was feeling terrible but i dunno why.
i stopped for a while to wait for him and saw him shaking his head.
i walked alone by myself all the way till i reach my block.
all along he didn't catch up with me.. just walk sliently behind me..
i took out his stuffs from my bag and we just stand there.
he looked really angry and when i thought he's gonna shout at me, he said,
" why you walk away just like tat? wad if i wasn't walking behind you? if something happened to you how?"
tat's when i cried for the 3rd time, this time in his arms.
i feel so safe just by hugging him.
he continued saying: "silly de, i also never scold you or angry with you, why you cry? next time still want to walk away like tat not?
though he didn't say much.. but i know he really cares bout me..

boy, if you happen to read this...
i'm really sorry for being so mean to you last night.
i had no idea wad had become of me..
thanks for tolerating my nonsense,
thanks for being so patient towards me despite my bad temper.
thanks for being so caring though i treat u so mean.
after all, you are still the one i love,
the one i want to spend the rest of my life with.

didn't accompany boy to his friend's wedding cos of my stupid menses!!
damn. it hurts like shit.
wouldn't it be great to get married and start a small family with the one you love?
i'm dreaming of getting married again.....lols.
anyway,
will be meeting ling all tomolo!!!!

ADVANCED HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING LING!!!!

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Amanda shouted @ 9:23 PM