In a world of you and me

2007-07-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

school had tied me down with assignments and exams.
so far completed 2 modules, housekeeping and front office operations.
i passed my housekeeping internal exam le. gt 56 marks!
today just took my front office exam... i'm quite certain i didn't do well...
hope i'm wrong bout this!

anyway, mel studied the same course same school and same time, but not same class with me.
too many things happened recently.
i'm totally lost now...

my grandma was admitted to tan tong seng hospital, now in ICU.
she had been there for 5 days already.
at first doc say it's something like a stroke but till now still can't find the main reason of it yet.
the doc said there are 2 types of germs in her blood and that she had lung infection.
and now she's breathing through a oxygen tube and she can't talk...
doc will try taking out the tube and let her breathe herself, if she can, chances of recovering is higher, if it's the other way round, we got to be metally prepared for the worse..
when i see those tubes piercing through her skin, it really aches my heart.
my grandma already so old le, why must go through this kind of torture?
how can she endure all these?
everytime i see her fragile body lying on bed, and when she tried to talk but no voice came out,
refused to rest because she's afraid we will leave her alone,
grab my hand tightly for fear i return home,the tiredness in her eyes...
it feels as if a thousand knifes stabbing deep into my flesh.
i couldn't describe the feeling.
it hurts badly. i dunno wad can i do to help her...
i'm scared. really scared. i dun wanna lose her.
i can never take it.
i cried badly to see her lying on bed, with all kinds of tubes, getting endless injections for blood tests, tried to talk but simply no words came out.. you know how fucking sad it is to see someone so so dear to you become like tat all of a sudden?
on the day she was admitted to hospital, she was sleeping on her sofa, taking naps,
i dun wanna disturb her so left school without saying bye to her.
why is it so unfair?
i just can't bear to see her in this state.
my grandfather is the most xin ku of all.
he already so old. still make an effort to work, after tat visit grandma in hospital, return to work again and return to hospital at night, and he didn't get suffient sleep. i'm really worried for him too.
father and mother also tired already. mother got to do everything herself and father got to work without sleeping at all since he's in the hospital most of the time.
my aunt will be flying back to see grandma.
my 2 younger sisters cry like dunno wad since they know they were not up to helping out.

dear god.

please. i plead you. please help my grandma.
please bless her for full recovery. please watch over her.
please let her conditions become better. please let her stay with us.
i'm not asking for prosperity, good wealth and fortune or status of important people;
all i want is for everybody i know to be healthy and well, safe and sound.
tat's all i ever needed.
please bless my ah ma well again!
prays hard*

think tat will be all.
shall update when i'm free.

dun wanna lose you.never. ever.
i love you ah ma...='(

2007-06-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

it's finally weekend!!!!
can't believe i've had 5 lessons in boston already!
i still can't really adapt to the school life now..
partly because i've not been studying for bout 2 years. for goodness sake!

my lecturer had finish teaching 5 chapters of facilities and accommodations,
all i could say was, so far so good.
i can still understand and follow up with the lessons.
i even answered questions that she asked!
there will be a group assignment for us to complete.
i'll be doing it with linez, pris and thazin.
the lecturer almost group us when one of the student, ah tan and siva asked her to group us instead of we choose ourselves!!!
cos rite in front of me is siva and ah tan so ah tan turned around and asked to join as a group!!!!
i dun wanna do assignment with ah tan who is old enough to be my father and siva whose language i just need to take a very long time to understand!
i'm not being choosy and mean.. jst feels damn weird..
luckily pris told my lecturer, cecilia tat we have gotten ourselves a group.=/

class was fun since there's all kinds of people around.
just got to know the 4 myanmar guys in class.
i took a long time to remember their names.. tho ya who is 21 years old, say ya 26 years old, chan nian 24 years old and shu mu 28 years old.
tat's roughly how their names sounds like..
tho ya keeps on laughing so i nickname him "laugh laugh".
the others name chan nian "ku ku" which means " brother" in myanmar.
i always called him tat and he will abit shy shy den laugh one..
i learn some myanmar language from thazin and say them to the boys,
who laugh at me cos i'm not very sure bout it..
during break we'll hang around downstairs and talk...
in all, my classmates are nice and fun lah.. =)

hopethe rest of the lessons will turn out well for me..

tough road ahead*

2007-06-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

it's my fourth day in boston and everything is pretty fine for me now.
i still can understand wad my lecturer said and i've make new friends!
my class is make up of 14 people of different ages, countries.
got to know 2 girls whom i could click with which was good...
priscilla and linez.
and i got a nickname call apple by one of them.
she just can't rem my name!
it's such a coincidence that our surname are tan, i got a book exactly the same as pris!
overall school wasn't as bad as i thought.

well. shall update again.
=)

2007-06-10T19:22:00.000+08:00

tomolo have to reach school by 11.30am cos of the stupid orietation.
i hope it's not play stupid games like break the ice or wadever hell it is gonna be.
may lady luck be smiling to me tomolo.
i dun wan to look like a fool on the first day of school.
thinking back now, i changed my mind regarding being returning to study is a good thing.
i have to adapt to the new environment, new way of learning things and worse of all, making new friends.
i'm really bad at starting a conversation with someone.
the conversation will onlyonly last a few mins before everything ends.
i simply hates the awkward feeling.
i'm never good at making friends!

hadn't heard from dear for nearly a day.
by rite he should be back from malaysia today but till now i still didn't get any msg nor calls from him.
i miss him terribly.
the feeling of missing someone yet there's no way to contact him is really bad.
he promised to meet me today...
but where is he now????

relationships can be tiring at times.
it's hard for 2 people of different character and attitudes to be together.
perhaps after some time of being together, you still couldn't adapt to your partner's lifestyle.
but i guess if both really makes an effort to like try to adapt or something like tat,
the relationship will still work.

it seems tat girls are normally the ones who got hurt and get dump in the end.
from my past relationships and wad some of my friends had gone through, this often happens.
girls are the ones who cried every nite thinking of the guy while the guy might be dating another girl already.
girls are the ones who become super thin after a broken-hearted.
u dun see guys not eating and cried all day long ba...
and it's really hard for a girl to let go of the relationship when she loves the guy dearly.
they will normally go through the hardest time of their life, walking alone without support,
tat's where they were the most fragile, and needs alot of encouragements and supports.

i really pity girls lah.
why must we go through all that?
it really hurts and the pain is unbearable.
i know because i feel it before..
the piercing sharp pain tat goes right through the heart.
damn emotional la.

men is afraid of women keeps on nagging non stop.
women is afraid of men keeping quiet all the time.

2007-06-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

schedule for my course was changed without me knowing.
people around me were telling me not to go out thursday cos it's vesak day.
i thought since it's not really their "day" so maybe they wil still opened as per normal.
we step into the lift to go up but the lift was "locked", so the 2 security guards laughed and asked why we dun asked them first,and say it's public holiday so the school is closed.
hel was pretty annoyed cos they should have stop us since they know the school was closed.
anyway, i look really dumb with the formal white shirt with black pants while hel and ting were in casual.
i look damn mature also la, as if i'm their older sister.
blame it on my chao lao face. =(
it was good to meet up with friends and go shopping together since it's been sometime since i last saw the gals.

so i took a cab down to my school the very next day as i'm late.
the uncle was being nice to turn the temperature of the aircon down for me and try his best to locate the place.
it cost 12.50 for the total but the uncle only charged me 12 bucks, i know it's merely 50 cents but it's been nice of him already. =)
it didn't turn out too bad as i've seen a couple of cute guys of boston!
i'm asked to wait for a while before my agent, aileen approached me telling me about the changed schedule.
she apologised for not informing me earlier as it's not really confirmed at tat time.
well, so it's changed to 11 june, and it's 12.30pm to 3.30pm daily as in weekdays only.
so again, i wasted another trip there...

i've not seen my boy and it's the 10th day already.
he had been working there for a week without any off days because the restuarant was short handed.
it aches my heart to see him work so hard yet he dun have a choice whether to work or not to..=(
i miss him so much.. =(

will upload the pics taken the other time with hel and boy soon.
for now, let me have some peace..

2007-05-23T16:26:00.000+08:00

8 more days before the course starts.

couldn't describe how i feels right now.

a mixture of excited, fear, worried.

just hope everything turns out really okie for me.

quite a lot of things happen in between these times.

it's damn hard to list all of them out and i dun wan people to read and feel bored.

anyway. harriet business school got boy a part time job as a waiter at a italian restuarant.

he had been working there for bout 3, 4 weeks i guess.

the people working there were friendly and i'm glad he got along well with them. =)

oh man, i like the way he dress with white shirt and black pants, really smart looking!!!

he look more like a man working in office den a waiter. loves it!=D

i'm always a cab-lover cos it's convenient, comfortable and most importantly,

dun have to squeeze with people!!!!

i can't expect all taxi uncles to be extremely nice and friendly cos humans came with different character and behaviour.

let me list a few kind of taxi uncles i've met:

super friendly, chit chat with customers all the time.

polite yet really quiet, one who smile and say goodbye and thank you to customers.

super duper quiet, just ask where you go and slience filled the air.

greedy ones, who purposely go one big round when there's actually a shorter route.

damn rude kind, as if the whole world own him 1 million.

i met the 5th kind a few days ago. i got on a cab and tell him my destination, he is already very unfriendly when i got up the cab but i thought nothing of it cos i thought he might be the 2nd or 3rd kind as most uncles dun talk alot one... but i'm completely wrong. he is the most rude and most agrressive i've ever seen!!!

when he stopped at my place, i give him the amount and he return my money coldly, without even looking at me.And so unfortunately, i carried 1 big bag and 1 big shopping bag. to make it worse, the shoe on my left foot fell off and i tried hard getting myself out of the cab with my hand full of things, faster wear my shoe back but stupid shoe cock up and make it hard for me to wear, and because i always take a look in the cab to see if i have forgot something..i guess all these took 1-3 mins times only, that fuck up uncle actually shouted, " HURRY UP MAN!" in a very harsh and angry tone. so this is how one suppose to behave in the customer service line?oh yeah, after i slam the damn door, he drive off as fast as he could so i can't see his damn number plate. anyway, it's a blue colour cab, can't remember his face cos it's too dark.

DAMN!!

it's quite sad that these type of people still exist. how could they treat customers like tat?so wad if i'm just a kid to him? so does it means that he, as a taxi driver, only respect people older or people witha status? how i wish i had take note of his number plate, i will sure complain to his boss!!! so pissed off.

i hate blue colour cabs. =/

2007-05-10T11:53:00.000+08:00

已经好久没有blog了，
就说说我的近况吧！
最近大部分的时间都在家，
我已经辞掉mac delivery operator的工作了。
理由很简单。

第一个原因是由于我的course 就要在差不多两个礼拜内开课，所以我想好好的休息，准备找回中学时的感觉，毕竟我大概有两年没有碰过书本了，需要时间适应。
至于第二个原因是我在sitel并不开心，虽然已在那里有8,9 months，
不过在这段短短的几个月，让我了解人的本性，人的自私自利。
sitel 就像是个战争地。我们都是兵士，原本该并肩做仗，
可是却自己杀自己人。
同事之间该互相帮忙而不是想尽办法陷害你。
有的人有求于你，they expect you to help them.
那当你需要帮忙时，they treat you like transparent,完全不理会或敷衍你几句就算了。
这样的工作环境值得做吗？
你根本不知道下一秒会发生什么事。
或许你们会觉得我说的太夸张了，
但句句都是真话。
i'm very tired and sick of working there.
quite glad that i've quitted the job.=)

走出了虚伪的地带，
相信明天会更好！！！
如果没记错的话，上个礼拜约ting,ling and hel去高歌一曲玩的真的很开心。
联络所的ktv收费很便宜！
四个小时一个人才七，八块！
虽然没有现在最in的歌曲，
但已经很不错了啦，k box might have the newest songs,but the price is double!!!
姐妹们，我们一定要把珊瑚海唱的完美无暇！=D
拍了满多我们的自恋照，还在修改中，will upload asap!

原本是要陪dear去giordano interview的。
但是他突然感觉不适所以取消那个念头，
后来决定去tampines mall看spiderman 3 和去找看有没有我要的白色衬衫。
spiderman 3 实在太棒了！
我很喜欢在里面演反派的James Franco.
他即有性格又帅。而且帅带点坏坏的感觉，
正是我喜欢的类型！
一个一直以为父亲的死和自己从小玩到大的好朋友，peter,也就是人人尊敬的spiderman有关，
被仇恨冲昏了头的harry决定杀了peter,为父亲报仇。
一次的失败导致失忆，让他脸上原有的邪恶魔样变得温柔了许多。
笑得变咪咪眼在加上灿烂的笑容，very cute!!!
后来恢复记忆伤害了自己和朋友。
一场爱与恨的纠纷才在管家的口中知道了真相，
风光的和spiderman联手对付敌人，
最后还牺牲自己拯救大英雄。
完美感人的结局。
他变成了我心目中的hero!!!=)

i'll end it here...=)
ciaos!

2007-04-28T16:29:00.000+08:00

ytd was suppose to be a happy day since it's our birthday girl, ling's birthday.
there's another one joining the 19 year old's club.
btw ling, sorry for not getting you a better present, will make it up for you!
i'm late for like at least 2 hours and damn it, took a cab down which cost me 10 bucks!
watch the robinson with the bunch and though it's a cartoon comedy kind where laughters filled the air,
i didn't laugh a single bit. i just sit there for an hour plus without any expressions.
maybe i've not seen ling all for quite long le so tends to feel a bit awkward and uneasy,
i just dun have the mood to do anything....=(
oh yeah, the guys at the counter looks pretty cute though.
who says attached girls can't have any eye candies, at least to ling and me!
but dear, u are still the one i love. =)

after which we went shopping. i mean, my shopping.
look around for the stupid black pants and white shirts.
nothing really caught my eyes and the prices are really expensive.
luckily i managed to get 2 black pants from metro, all thanks to ling, hel and miao.=)
will be getting my shirts soon with dear say arh next week, tat's wad he promised me.
shit. i'm not prepared to go study, again!

waving goodbyes to ling and miao,
hel, ting and i went to have dinner in century square's food court.
actually plan to walk around before heading home,
but unfortunately something bad happened.
it seems tat hel met her last time de collegue in one of the shop so ting and i walked further up to like let them have a short conversation.
it happens that someone called out to ting, not sure it's hel or the collegue.
as to say, all 3 of them knew each other.
this bloody collegue of theirs exclaimed in a pretty loud voice,
" OH, THAT ONE DEN IT'S TING ARH? I THOUGHT SINCE WHEN TING BECOME SO FAT!!! "
mind you, the person she said fat is ME!!!!!!!!!!!
at first, i heard it and actually dismissed it off, walked back to where they are talking...
feel damn extra standing there when i dunno wad the hell they were talking about,
i walk around looking at shoes and clothes, away from them.
the more i think of it, the more pissed and angry i feels,
being called fat by a complete stranger, a auntie who is FAT as well in a public place where there's shoppers around and in the face of my 2 friends!!!!!!
can't she just fcuking used her fcuking brain to think before she blurt out anything she wants?
can't she talk softly and take a fcuking good look at herself before commenting?
can't she confirm which one is the one she knows before she talks?

i'm a human, made of flesh and blood.
i have emotions and feelings.
just a casual remark, even if you dun fcuking mean it,
be it good or bad, i take them seriously.
and the word " FAT" is super sensative to me.
a casual remark from someone who dun used her bloody brain really pissed me off totally.
like who is she to say tat when she herself is FAT too?
let's say the person is not me, just anybody,
how will the person feels?
naturally it's absolutely normal to be pissed and angry.
the words struck me and the feeling is like as if someone had use a dagger and stab right through my heart.
i feel so bloody hurt...
even if i'm really fat, must she said so clearly?
damn. i'm really unhappy bout this.
i wanna give her one tight slap and a hard punch on her face,
or maybe cut off her tongue so tat she dun get the chance to talk!!!!
it's just a thought, i'm not gonna do it.

it hurts so much tat i cry my heart out on the bus back home.
i have my pride and dignity too.
i didn't talk to ting and hel at all thought it's not their fault.
i show them attitude and ignores them.
how mean have i become?
i apologised to them and everything is fine now.
oh my.. why am i feeling all these?
why do i cry so much nowadays?

the mood swings are terrible. =(

2007-04-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

was surprised that dear had baked me a cake for our 21st month anniversary!!!
it was his 1st attempt and it looked pretty good eh?
the top left hand corner of the cake was eaten by me.=p
thanks dear for making an effort, i love it!!!
and of course i love you too, my dear care bear! <3

anyway. my blue black is better,
and the skin had peel off slowly off my neck and forehead.
oh yeah, i almost forgot,
i got scald by the iron around my elbow.
damn, i've got 2 ugly scars tat's gonna be there for as long as i live! =(
and finally, i got all 3 bad things happened to me once and for all.
i'm lucky that they are just minor injuries for god blesses me!

ytd went out with dear and i'm so happy!
it's been quite some time since we last went out.
we decided to catch a movie and i'm touched tat dear still remember tat i wanna watch 200 pounds beauty!
the show was fantastic and i loved it so much la!!!!!
the story was good, the songs were very nice and some of the scenes keeps me laughing!!!!!
can't help but broke down in tears near the end of the show...
it's hard for a show to actually make me in tears...
this show really touches my heart so much....
dear was so mean la, he laughed at me upon seeing me in tears!!!!!!!
in conclusion,
it's a show which you wouldn't want to miss!!!

had dinner with him after the show and decided to return back to around my house area.
everything was okie till he said he need to go back already and it's only like 10 plus!
he were to meet his old friends up to celebrate his last day of a freedom man,
as in because he's getting married today.
perhaps getting too emotional and paranoid,
i actually break down for a second time,
i did not tell dear wad's the cause of it even though he keep asking.
i just sit there and cry.
he called his friends and tell them he's not going over already.
all just because of me.
i feel damn guilty after tat for he sacrifices the time with his secondary buddies and stay with me.
i know he must have feel damn fed up but keep mute to himself.

he tried cheering me up with all kinds of things but i still look very sian.
he had been very patient with me all the while despite my cold attitude to him.
den he asked if i wanna go back.
i didn't say a word den pick up my bag and leave.
i was feeling terrible but i dunno why.
i stopped for a while to wait for him and saw him shaking his head.
i walked alone by myself all the way till i reach my block.
all along he didn't catch up with me.. just walk sliently behind me..
i took out his stuffs from my bag and we just stand there.
he looked really angry and when i thought he's gonna shout at me, he said,
" why you walk away just like tat? wad if i wasn't walking behind you? if something happened to you how?"
tat's when i cried for the 3rd time, this time in his arms.
i feel so safe just by hugging him.
he continued saying: "silly de, i also never scold you or angry with you, why you cry? next time still want to walk away like tat not?
though he didn't say much.. but i know he really cares bout me..

boy, if you happen to read this...
i'm really sorry for being so mean to you last night.
i had no idea wad had become of me..
thanks for tolerating my nonsense,
thanks for being so patient towards me despite my bad temper.
thanks for being so caring though i treat u so mean.
after all, you are still the one i love,
the one i want to spend the rest of my life with.

didn't accompany boy to his friend's wedding cos of my stupid menses!!
damn. it hurts like shit.
wouldn't it be great to get married and start a small family with the one you love?
i'm dreaming of getting married again.....lols.
anyway,
will be meeting ling all tomolo!!!!

ADVANCED HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING LING!!!!

ramdom pictures

2007-04-23T12:28:00.000+08:00

there are times when you heard people saying when you are unlucky for the 1st time, there will be 2 more sway things will happen to you, in just a case of major or minor.
i used to think that this is so not true untill it happen to me.

have been working 4 days constant last week.
work was pretty bad cos many things had happened once and for all.
7 collegues got dismissed due to some major mistakes they had made,
they could prevent this from happening but... perhaps it's fate.
have been working in sitel for bout 9 months,
i've seen people leave, i've seen more new faces.
i prefer the time when i first came in.
the laughters, the cheerings when the particular team had a goal,
the people i know back den.. was good.
for now, everything had changed,
not for the better but for the worst.
2 of the shiftleaders will be resigning due to some problems,
almost all the shiftleaders are malays now,
and that maybe there will be some bias in between.
collegues were being so selfish and sickening.
this particular malay gal who sits beside me during 1 of the working days,
supposing 1 order was made by her and there were mistakes.
customer called back saying there's wrong order and it happen to be pick up by me.
got the details correctly and called the restaurant who is in charged.
instructions given by the malay gal is " all cheeseburgers to be plain with pattie only, and she grill the list of unwanted stuffs in the burgers.
restuarant manager said that, cheeseburgers plain is the same as hamburgers.
so i thought perhaps customers didn't said clearly hence there's mistakes.
i called back to cust, informing him of wad the manager told me.
cust insisted that he mentioned that he wants the cheeseburgers plain but with cheese.
i told the malay girl that cust wanted the burgers plain but with cheese and know wad?
that fcuking girl TOLD me to go and check the recordings whether the cust really said tat not and wants meto call back the restuarant manager to inform him!!
WHO IS SHE TO ORDER ME TO DO THINGS WHEN IT'S HER FCUKING JOB TO FIND OUT THE TRUTH INSTEAD OF ME?
i was damn angry yet i can't just sit there and ignore this when she dun care at all!!!
listen to recording and no doubt the customer was right, so i called back and tell the manager regarding wad's happening and request him to send the right burgers to exchange with cust.
cos we have the duty to recover the customer 1st before settling with restuarant later on.
this manager by the name of narin, i dunno he's malay or indian,
told me off in a harsh tone saying," it's not our fault wad, why should we send down the burgers lea?" i explain to him patiently and hope he will understand but i'm totally wrong!!!
he said he wants to speak to my shiftleader but at tat moment all the shiftleaders are in a meeting. so he wants me to get the sl to called him back once they are done and hung up my phone just like tat!!!!
i tell the malay girl everything and i tink most pro she is afriad tat she might get warning letter so she told me she will call the restuarant immediately.
when she puts down the phone 5 mins later, she said everything was okie already.
the manager said he will send the burgers down to the cust, tell her next time dun do this mistake again and tat now the sl dun have to call him back anymore!!!!!!!!!!!
she said the manager tell her all this in a normal soft tone!!!!

if you were me, how would you feel?
1st, the wrong order is not taken by me and i had to check for the agent.
2nd, i have to apologised to cust and restuarant.
3rd, restuarant refused to send the burgers down and insisted on getting the sl to call back.
4th, the agent called back and everything was okie already.

wad is this?
it's fcuking not my problem and why it seems tat i'm the one who took the order wrongly?
i'm just trying to help yet was treated by them like this?
the fcuking manager racist or wad?
and wad's more, he is just 1 fcuking manager among the rest and he is still under jenny.
who is he to act as if he's the boss like tat when he's just nothing?
and that malay agent, why is she ordering me around when she is just another newcomer?
i'm not racist but take a look and reflect wad i've said.
i'm in no wrong at all.

tat's definately not the end.
there's so many i wanted to say but i dun wanna bored you to death.
just 1 last one by a customer and i'm done with the job thing.
this customer called in to order and there's a change in his address.
got his postalcode and asked him to verify his address to me.
it's not hard to say the address rite?
he answer me back," you have the postalcode, you should have the address!"
so i tell him there's a need to verify once there's a new address.
so he tell me his address in a unhappy tone.
took his order which consist a 20 pc nuggets and i tink a burger or a meal.
asked him for the sauces he wants for his nuggets,
he said he wants 10 curry sauces!!!
so i tell him nicely tat there's a condiments policy and can i offered him 5 instead?
know wad he replied?
" wad? last time i called and request for 7 curry 7 sweet & sour they give me lor, i dun need any other sauces just the 10 curry sauces will do wad."
obviously he wants to argue with me,
with no other choices, i gave him wad he wants.
at that time, he is already very unhappy with me from the tone of his voice.
wanted to give him his order no. and the time to food will be reaching,
he hangs up my call immediately?
how fcuking rude is he?
he need 10 curry sauces for fcuk?
2 nuggets need 1 tub of curry, does he mean tat?
so wad if he had a meal, at most 6 or 7 curry will be enough for all!!!
he used the sauces to bath or drink it like water?
can't he talk nicely? operators are also humans like him!

i hate going to work...

there's not the end of my bad encounters.
i had a fall at the stairs of my block and it leaves 2 blue black each on my legs.
ytd i dye my hair and there's stains on my neck and forehead,
mum and sister used tissues dip with water and those japan sponge and scrub the stains,
the stains were clear but they scrub so hard till it's po pi.
it hurts badly and i have troubles bathing and washing my face cos when the wounds touches water or soap, the pain in unbearable!!!!!!
it got slightly better today though but it's ugly...=(

damn. that's how unlucky i have been...
oh ya, i love my black hair now. =D

2007-04-14T20:53:00.000+08:00

* PS: pls pardon me if the pics were too white, cos my stupid com is in pink now and sorry for the 2 blur pictures taken by the front camera of my phone.*

FRIDAY 13 APRIL 2007.

with lots of love, from me to you <3

not forgetting the pics for the day. =D

Fu xiang and his 1st catch say hello to mr big prawn!

Fu xiang's 2nd catch 3rd catch, a prawn or scorpio?

4th and 5th catch, fighting. the " jia sai fish"

the 3 big boys =) and the last catch of the day!!

Time for cam- whoring. =))

2007-04-14T17:59:00.000+08:00

suppose to meet dear at 1.15pm at my place ytd,
but dear couldn't make it on time because he need to collect his passport.
so around 2pm like tat dear den reach my place and he was fuming with anger.
it was so because the taxi uncle is a money-cheater!!
he puposely go one big round just to reach my place,
when actually by right, he just have to turn right and go all the way straight will do!!!!
so from lavender to hougang, it cost 14 bucks exactly!!!!!
based on my boy's character, he's definately not one who knows the uncle eats his money and quietly paid up.
so yeah, he somehow tick the uncle off by saying something like: " uncle, just now the route turn rite den go straight can reach already wad, you go the longer route for wad, cheat my money arh?" ( and of course there's some vulgar in between which is rude to reveal.=D)
and of course that uncle smart one la... he denied everything off and say,: "no la, that's the only 1 route to go only."
he must have imagine dear being a 3 year old kid.(-_-'')
why can't taxi drivers ( i mean some greedy ones) be more honest?
everyone wants to earn money and there are many ways to do it, but why wanna cheat?
i met a few dishonest taxi uncles before.
for example, from geylang bahru to hougang,
normal rates is around 7 plus while midnight rates at most 8,9 plus.
so these uncles, i dunno where and how they go, but by the time it reaches my place,
it burns a big hole in my pocket. ( heart aches.....)
alright, back to wad i said earlier on,
so dear and i plan to flag a cab down to my sch...
but almost all the cabs are hired or the drivers dun wanna go to our destination!!
my appointment with the sch is 2pm and can you imagine waiting for a cab for 1 hour plus?
we reach the sch which is located around bugis at 3.30pm and the cab fare is $15.
the warm greetings from the consultant really brighten my day a little.
she explain to me the details i'm suppose to know for the course, wad to wear, the time of my course etc..
everything was pretty clear and i'm suppose to wear white long sleeve shirt with either black pants/skirt plus black shoes, lessons starts at 3.30pm to 6.30pm mon to fri.
i've seen some of the students and to my horror,
i didn't see any girls around and the students look like some bangalas and illegal workers, and saw 1 chinese guy, but he's at least a dozen older den me!!!
i thought,oh gosh, am i gonna study with in a class full of bangalas, construction workers and uncles/aunties???
it's not tat i'm againest them or wadever, just tat wad if i were to meet up with some problems and all,
who can help me out? i'm worried tat they wun understand wad i'm talking about...sighs...
anyway, paid a total of $4500 for my hotel and casino managments course,
starting school around 1 months' time, stress!!!!!!!!!!!
it freaks me out. =(
after a simple dinner in bugis, dear suggest fishing at punggol park with his friends.
finally meet them up around 7pm at the park.
i'm pretty thrilled at the thought tat i can catch prawns!
dear's friend, fuxiang prepare the rods, the hooks, the food for the prawns and fishes which is flour+water=dough.
it's only up till yesterday den i know there's a number of stuffs to prepare.
so in conclusion,
fuxiang caught 6 prawns.
edmund caught nothing as he gives up half way through and starts chatting on his hp.
dear and me caught a " eat shit fish" (pls translate to hokkien) and a net.
it's funny tat the rod we used is meant for catching prawns while fuxiang's rod is for catching fishes, yet we caught a " eat shit fish" and fuxiang caught prawns!!!
there were times when dear and i could catch at least some prawns cos we can feel it but when we take out the rod from the pond, the prawns had slip away with the dough!!!
we were there from 7pm to 11pm and it was fun, with stupid jokes and conversations throughout the time like edmund talking to the prawns, dear wanna push me into the pond, the boys throwing dough at each other etc...
i've always thought tat fishing/catching prawns is a very boring and silly thing to do,
and tat why guys like it so much despite they had to spend the whole day there under the hot sun, getting mosqitoes bites and worse, caught nothing at all.
it's a wonderful time to spend some quiet moments there with friends and love ones instead of hanging out in the city and spending hell lots of money.
although i didn't manage to catch any prawns,
i'm happy tat i gain the first hand experience and it's really not as bad as i've think.
looking forward to the next trip! =)

oh ya, before i forget,
there's these bunch of kids fishing over there, i tink they were earlier den us,
they make alot of noise but we think nothing of it as like, which kid ain't playful?
at first edmund all was teasing the kids saying the things were imported from australia, spain and the list of crapping things goes on.
it gets bad when they came to talk to dear all, starting to borrow stuffs and being rude.
i mean really very rude. they start scolding vulgar and become really aggressive.
among the kids, there's this plump one who is really fcuking rude, or i should say a "guai lan" one.
he copys exactly wad fuxiang said and yes, he scold vulgar at dear all.
it's okie to like play play and copy a few times wad ppl said,
but it gets very irritating after some time rite?
this kid really dunno how to write the word dead in chinese,
he's trying hard to get them on their nerves even when fuxiang and edmund had warned him not to get too far.
tat good for nothing kid scolds even more vulgar at dear all, without knowing he had already provoke the one who had been keeping quiet all these while when the kids create chaos, my dear boy.
dear tell the other kids to get the plump boy to come over to our side but tat boy actually had the guts to say: " he want den tell him to come la!"
so dear stare at him and said, " okie, i come!!" and walk over to tat boy's side.
using one hand, he grabbed tat kid's neck and starts to scold him dunno like wad, i saw the kid like in such a pain and gasping for air!
i'm damn stunned for a good 5 secs and faster ask fuxiang to stop dear from hurting tat kid further.
( it's not tat i dun wanna stop him, but dear doesn't listen to me regarding these matters de.)
luckily fuxiang and edmund reach there just on time to stop dear from giving tat 1 hard punch on the kid's face.
people at the park was wondering wad's the commotion was about.
thank god dear had not be so implusive and beat tat kid or else i really had no idea wad the consequences will be!!!

so when i thought all was fine,
tat stupid kid scold vulgar at us while riding a bicycle past, speeding off for his dear life.
fuxiang got angry and throw the plastic bag containing a prawn he had caught earlier on to tat kid but hence it didn't hit the kid due to the far distance and of course, tat prawn was nowhere in sight.
those kids were just merely some 11, 12 years old primary school kids,
i really didn't expect them to scold such things out of their mouth,
and being really rude!!
i wonder this is the way they talks to their parents and elders?
kids nowadays are really a bunch of ignorance rude kids tat obviously need more discipline!!
they just dun understand tat they would get into very deep trouble outside in the society today.
or let's see from the other point of view.
perhaps they thought scolding vulgar is a cool thing and tat ppl will be scare of them?
or perhaps they thought tat scolding vulgar is normal cos almost everywhere u can hear someone scolding vulgar?
or they just want more attention from the ppl around them?
there's alot of possibilities these kids are behaving like tat.
they were ought to teach a lesson before learning to be good.

anyway, pictures will be uploaded after this entry.
work tomolo, sian!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

didn't go to work again cos i'm still feeling unwell.
it's the first time i need to go back to the doctor for a 2nd time cos normally i'll be alright after the 1st course of med.
instead of earning more money, i spend $28 more..
till now haven fully recovered yet, but had to go work tomolo.
these few days at home was super boring.
i wake up, eat, watch tv, sometimes help my mum mop floor and surf net.
ting all had go to sentosa on tuesday, while i'm staying at home rotting.
oh god, pls ensure tat i'm healthy soon!

just now chat with a online friend.
when i first know him, he is still single.
and now, after some weeks, he had a gf already.
they were together like only 1 month plus..
wad surprise me is tat,
he said they getting married soon!!!
okie, they aren't very young anymore, cos both 23 i tink,
and he said tat his future wife is the best gal he ever know;
and that they are serious with this relationship.
i asked him: " dun you tink it's too fast to like plan to get married??"
he answered me saying: " actually time doesn't matter as long as we are really in love."
he had already propose to her and were planning to tie the knot in aug.
actually to tink of it, wad he said were pretty convincing.
it doesn't mean tat a relationship of 5 years can be compared to a short 1 month relationship.
it's not as if something like, " oh well, i'm gonna married to blah blah in blah blah years."
things will change. surroundings will change. and of course, people changes too.
a 5 years relationship might just go down the drain once the feelings faded or there's some misunderstandings.
a 1 month relationship will make one think tat," hai ya, blah blah and bleh bleh wun last very long lah."
in the end, they plan to get married.
so as to say,
when a relationship is stayed on for too long and hence,
feelings might fade, communications break down, no topics to talk about,
evetually the ending will be " you go your way, i go my way."
okie, even if a relationship had just started,
but if u are finacially stable, love each other alot and you already thought of things like " i wan to be with so and so for the rest of my life" and both are really ready to start a family,
i mean no harm getting married yeah?
even if after marriage you find flaws in your partner,
i believe there's solutions to reslove the problems,
they will still be the lovey dovey pair which make others envious!!
it's hard to build up a family,
but i believe the power of love...
every obstacles ahead will be solve if they had tried to keep the bond going.
anyway. i'm really happy for my friend though,
for he had found the right one who is willing to walk hand in hand with him till they grow old...
isn't tat sweet?

so sian.
have to go work tomolo nad registation to my school on friday.
i'm really studying, no jokes!!!
got to rest already...

till den......=)

2007-04-08T20:31:00.000+08:00

suppose to go work today from 2pm to 6pm,

but i'm sick with flu and throat infection,

den morning wake up the right side of my neck hurts..
damn it, so unlucky one!

on 29/3/07 and 02/04/07

these 2 days were spend with hel.

as usual, we went out and took lots of pictures.

will post up after this entry.

on 06/04/07

spend boy's birthday on 6th of april.

we had dinner at marina south's steamboat with 4 of his friends.

i'm the only girl and tat all his friends are like only 17, 18.

i'm like the 2nd oldest other den dear. -_-"

his friends are real funny one, they crap alot lah.

one of his friend even put the whole egg into the boiling water!

it's damn funny cos others will just crack the egg and pour it into the water!

at tat time i'm like super quiet cos i dunno wad to talk to them about plus i'm really kind of sick tat day.

so my face is always in a daze and no expression one,

i bet i look real ugly tat day.

after which we took bus back to marina bay's mrt station,

cos his friends all alighting at lavender stop mah,

den those 3 guys were all like standing outside the door,

waving gooodbye to us den all of a sudden,

the train goes off and his friends were running after the train!!!

too dramatic isn't it? dear and i laugh like mad.

so happy dear like the polo shirt i bought for his birthday.

he even wear it on his birthday as well.

he look good in tat green polo! =)

actually nothing much happens recently cos my time were mostly take up by work or just simply lazing at home.

think tat's all for today!

will update soon, i promised! =)

pictures taken with hel and my boy and

some camwhoring pics of myself. =p

at least 4 kinds of med to take down till i recover. =(

pics of my dear boy and i. =D

and of course not forgetting my hel darling!!!! =)

it's all me. =p

good nite people. =)

2007-03-26T12:31:00.000+08:00

try logging to blogger but failed like at least 5 times.
so this entry is gonna be a long one.

having no idea wad to study really bothers me a hell lots of time.
i just got all tense up and stress all of a sudden.
to choose hotel and casino managment or just hotel management?
my first instincts is to take up the hotel and casino management,
i've told hel about it and she had the same thoughts as me.
i've tell myself so many times that this time round,
i'm gonna study real hard and stop playing a like fool.
i keep reassuring myself that i'll be fine with tat course,
tat i'm gonna make it and get myself a diploma and dun let my family down.
but wad worries me is that,
i'm not sure whether i'm up to it or not,
i'm not sure if i can really cope with it
and lastly, i really have no confidence in myself.
i've been really moody last night and dear asked me wad i'm stressing over.
i told him about it and he said, " since you already plan to study le, wad's to stress about?"
i doubt he knows how i feels right inside.
so again, we nearly had an arguement because i've been in a daze and feeling so sian.
and of course the main problem is that,
i'm scare we'll drift apart since we will be in different schools,
as i've mention in my last entry,
the school schedules is so packed that i'm pretty sure he wun have time for me.
or am i just worrying too much?

sometimes, i asked myself," why can't he understands how i feels?"
it just seems that we can't communicate very well..
he expects me to be just straight forward and not beat about in the bush,
but not all things can be like say straight into the person's face.
he told me he cannot be sensative since he's like tat since young ; i accept it.
but haii. i really dunno how to say...
sometimes i just need that extra care and attention from him.
i dun expect much, just a little will do.

why is it that promises are made and meant to be break?
why bother to apologise when the next time round history repeats again?
disappointments rush through me everytime a promise is make, yet it's not fulfilled.
i would rather have you not promise me anything,
and when u actually done it, i'll be more happy.
i dun wan to feel sad all the time...
ytd i asked dear what he dislike about me,
he went on telling me tat,
i should be more independent;
i should have more confident in myself
and that i shouldn't be like do things with him around only.
i guess he is right.
i just depend on him alot..
maybe i should learn to get things done on my own?
time really goes by very fast.

i have been together with dear for a year and 8 months.
through all these while we went through alot.
the hardships when he is in ns, the happiness we felt, the sorrows and woes we shared and the list just goes on.
i remember when the 1st time i know him through a matual friend,
he didn't leave a good impression on my mind.
i was thinking, " another ah beng flirty guy."
i even tell hel i will never fell in love with him!!!
but after a few months of constant smses with him,
we became pretty close and started to have late night talks almost everyday.
we shared our laughters, tears, happiness and sorrows with each other.
i know he is the one.
and after these months after months with him,
though he ain't sensative,
not the romantic sweet talker,
another typical big boy who doesn't expresses him feelings well,
i dun regret being with him.
it really takes alot of time to build up a strong relationship.
i'm trying very hard to make my relationship a long lasting and lovey dovey one.
in other words,
i really can't live without him in my life.

A MESSAGE TO MY ONE AND ONLY.

baby,

we have come so far and i believe we are still going strong.
as you can see,
my love for you stays strong and true.
we may tend to have small arguments and quarrels once in a while,
but i'm glad we sort things out and back to the same again.
i may not be the perfect gf you wanted.
i'm trying hard to be one.
i may sound very mushy but wad i'm gonna tell you
are wad i'm feeling right from the bottom of my heart.

just wanna tell you this,

promises i've made to you i'll keep it close to my heart,
through thick and thin,
through good and bad times,
remember there's still me here all along with you,
to share your burdens,
to share your happiness,
to accompany you walk through the rest of your life.

loving you with my heart,
till the end of time. <3

2007-03-24T01:19:00.000+08:00

just came back from work like half an hour ago?
suppose to work from 6pm to 10pm one,
den katherine ask me to replace her for 2 hours so i went in to work earlier.
den thought i can go back at 10pm den jason ask me to extend for him another 2 hours.
luckily i got take half an hour de break or really can die one...=/

yesterday went to the study and work talk with dear at NTUC centre.
there were like at least 10 security guards in the building.
and dear and i need to key in our nric no to get through.
even the lift inside also have a mini tv lah, damn high tech!
i find all these very bo liao la,
i mean hello? it's just a talk, but why are we going through so much for nothing?
den nvm, the talk alot of ppl attend lor.
ppl from 20 plus all the way to at least 50 or 60 plus.
many of us had to stand throughout the talk cos the seats are full.
this talk was conducted by a guy who have alot diplomas or wadever he have la.
he crap alot lah. talk those unrelated topics,
it's a complete waste of time la.
and will ppl use ya ya ya at the end of every sentence if he/she have perfect english?
unfortunately, tat guy was acting ang moh or whoever he wants la,
oh please, he look like a security guard more den someone who had lots of diplomas la.
tat's my point of view, cos i just dun like him and hence,
i dun see a need to listen to him though i admit some are really facts la.
dear thought i'm also going to have interviews with the consultants but i'm not joining harriet business school.
first, my aunt said the course is too much for me to cope.
secondly, the fees are really expensive.
thirdly, partly because i dun wanna waste their hard earned money again.
den boy and i had a slight argument bout the schools thingy,
it's not tat i dun wanna study with him,
i can't afford to like waste any more money le...
boy was quite fed up with me lah,
but thankfully, we are fine after some cooling down.
so we sit down at a table under my block and we had a really good talk over this school matter.
we talk for at least an hour trying to solve our problems,
dear really enlightened me alot.
he make me realised i had to study double times harder den other ppl.
he make me know tat we are striving hard now for a good life in future.
stories after stories, i've heard bout his friend,
from a EM3 student to study ite follow by poly and uni,
he is a giordano manager now with good pay, i tink.
another friend of his, who is a ah beng,is a manager of k box now who earns 4000 plus.
he's like saying, my friends all pai kias can do it, and you a guai guai nu why cannot do it?
i find it so true as in why ppl can do but why i can't?
i've sorted things out, i thought about it the whole of last night,
i understand, finally.
dear and i need not be studying in the same school but we still striving hard for our future.
well, dear most pro will be going to harriet business school which i'll take boston business scool instead.
i can't be depending alot on my boy anymore, i have to learn to be independent.
and there's a quote which says, " absence makes the hearts grew fonder"!!!!
i dun wanna disappoint my family and my dear boy le.
but i still dunno which course to take la.... damn confusing can?
fickled minded, just dunno wad i wants exactly..=s

the night is getting darker.
the night is so quiet.
here i am, all alone,
saying good night to all. =)

2007-03-17T12:35:00.000+08:00

work had occupied most of my time recently.
i got no time to sleep and yes,
dark eye rings and breakouts had since become more visible.

boy and i plan to study together ever since when he's still in ns.
we went looking for schools and eventually found 2.
1 is harriet business school while the other is boston business school.
actually we plan to study CTHCM diploma in hotel and casino managment. you see, the admission requirements is just having a good secondary education, i guess i can go in without any problems and it cost cheaper with 6 months theory and 6 months job training, having classes from monday to friday and have 3 different timing you can choose from which is about 3 hours per day, they will pay you for the job training but it's 500 to 700 per month and the school fees cost about 4ooo plus.
as for harriet business school, it's a course call advanced diploma in travel, tourism and hospitality which means, diploma in 1 year's time in which 1 studying day from 9.30am to 9.30pm , the others will be job training, and yeah, they give you basic pay of 1500 per month, but the school fees is like 15,000 for just diploma, as for degree will be another charges.

boy's mum wants him to study in harriet business school as she said it's more recognised and they have more experiences gained.
my aunt advice me to take boston business school instead cos it's easier for me to cope.
how to study together when we are totally different schools?
boy said most probabely he will be studying at harriet but because we are going for a talk tonight so he say shall see how first.
boy can easily study there cos at least he had a o level,
but i had to go through interview and let them decide whether i'm up to it den can approved.
i'm really very confused now.
boy and i even had a arguement over this matter.
why must things turn out to be like this?
i really need someone there to push and motivate me...
i really want to study with him.
i dun want to waste my aunt's money.
i really really want to study...

enough of tat,
i hate talking bout sad stuffs.
anyway, there's a ton of pics rite at the top,
the pics were taken when i'm out with hel, ling, my 2 sisters and boy on different days.
i got my wish grant cos dear took me to the funfair!!
we only play the fero wheel and sky rider cos just like tat,
it cost us 30 bucks in all. =(
but i must say it's worth it lah.
sky rider was really scary as you go round and round,
getting higher from the ground and it swings faster den i had imagined.
i was screaming my heads off while boy was enjoying and shouting whoo hoo beside me.
fero wheel was good,
when it first goes up, i got scare cos it's right at the top of the fero wheel,
but after a few rounds, it become so nice when you can see the whole of the funfair right beneath you!
boy and 1 had at least 10 rides for that.
it just goes round and round and makes my poor boy feeling giddy and uneasy,
he just got well and despite that he still feels unwell,
he make an effort to accompany me. =)
took some pics with boy as you can see right above this.
oh ya, saw this couple on the merry go round,
they were so sweet la. awfully sweet!
they were sitting on a diff horse, holding hands throughout and looking at each other for god dunno how long!
i was like hinting boy saying," dear, they very sweet lea!"
but i doubt he gets my hint and say they very drama.
it's romantic and sweet though it looks kind of dramatic.
after a while, dear whsiper to my ear saying, " they are lesbians la."
i turned and realised the "guy" is actually a gal too.
but who cares. they are so sweet. =D

went to work ytd.
was so lonely for the 7 hours since neither sihui or ting was working.
and times passes very slowly lah. really can die.
i finish reading the cleo magazine and the time is not up yet.
i got a strange encounter just before i got off from work.
this cust by the name of norazza called and give me a really strange number starting from 0 and the list goes on more den 8 digits like our sinagpore number,
so i think nothing of that and asked her for a local number.
so she give me mount elizabeth hospital number and of course the postal code plus the full address as in wad room she's in, which ward which level.
took her order and before i very confirm her orders,
the line got cut off.
so i called back the hospital number given by her.
so i tell the person on the other line regarding wad's going on
and after she check, she say no such person by the name of norazza.
so she tranfer my call to a nurse, so again, i tell her the whole story,
she check for me and again said there's nobody by the name of that and wad freaks me out is she said the room was empty!!!!
i know i didn't heard anything wrongly from the cust.
she said it's level 5, ward 6B and room number 5327.
the nurse asked me if i had gotten the wrong numbers and all,
so after thanking her, i faster tell jason wad's going on la.
and he joke say maybe it's a prank call by a ghost!
i hope wad he said wasn't true though.
i didn't send the order over since there's no such person.
this whole thing is weird yeah?
i was thinking if this was a prank call,
why the cust is so sure bout the hospital no, the room number, ward and level? she didn't take a long time to tell me her address lea.
ohhh well, never mind. =s

watch 2 movies with boy recently.
300 and the haunted school.
300 was a fantastic show though there were a lot of killings, blood, head being cut off and sex.
i thought the enemy looks like one of the character in street fighter!
you know the one with long hands and long legs?
the enemy look so much him him!
boy was laughing his head off when i tell him bout it.
the haunted school wasn't a good show, or so i thought.
there were some parts which is really scary la but after the show,
i dun even know understand the ending.
quite a stupid show but i like one of the guy in tat with a ping di tou.
he is so so so cute la!!!! he's name is dunno wad tian you one.

one last thing before i end my entry for today.
after our work ting and i meet up with hel.
on the way back in bus 72,
these 2 bangalas gt up the bus and sit opp ting's place.
ting was wearing a short pants tat day and those 2 bangalas keep on staring and talking among themselves.
hel and i were sitting right behind ting and we saw everything.
i was staring hard at the stupid bangala sitting on the outside,
but he still keep on looking at tings legs.
so i pass my big bag to ting to cover her legs,
but wad the fcuk when that pervertic bangala was still staring at her!!!!
he just keep on turning and look at ting, he even take one last look before he alight lor!!!
wad's the hell wrong with these bangalas!!!!
they were here to work and not to stare at girls!!!!
at that moment i really wish i can gorge out his eyes and play ping pong!
hel was saying luckily he never touch his there whe he's looking lor or else it damn gross lah. wth.
so hel and i were saying if he really grabs his there,
we gonna pull it long and break it and swing it in the air and hitting his face hard with his own " ahem" !!!!!!!!!!!
hel and i were laughing really hard lah.
it's damn funny but hey,
we were just imagining la,
who ask him to be so pervert!!!!!!!!!
this also teach gals a lesson: never wear too skimpy and revealing clothes!
you might not know a million pair of eyes were " molesting" you!!!!

tat's all for today.
it's a long entry which can make up for the past few days when i didn't blog.
work from 3pm to 10 pm tomolo again and after tat,
no work for me!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-12T23:05:00.000+08:00

it's so sad that i couldn't see my boy today.
dunno wad the heck but my mother was in a fcuking bad mood today.
i miss him. and i mean i really miss him hell lots.
was glad that he got better after taking some meds.=))

boy gonna meet his friends tomolo to go register together.
still not comfirm bout the schools yet.
but with his last time's school results, i tink shouldn't be a problem for him.
i wanted to study together with him, hence with just n level results,
i doubt i can study in MDIS.
i'm worried i can't get in...
i really wanted to study, just just because with dear,
but also for my own future la.
you can't expect me to work as a operator for life rite?
i regret.
simply regret for not making an effort to study hard like my friends do.
prays hard i can study with boy*

will be bringing both sisters to seng kang to cut hair.
follow by meeting hel, ling at the fun fair.
dunno who will be going but both my sisters wanna go la.
we want to play challenger, mo tian lun...
suppose it to be a fun day tomolo!

dear, when are we going to zoo? =D

2007-03-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling super moody and hurt.
how can my grandmother said such hurtful words to me when i didn't purposely do it?
the words she said stabs me hard in my heart...
i respect her for who she is and why can't she leaves my pride alone?
i cried badly, at least for a good 10 to 15 mins.
i just can't stop crying , my heart aches like hell.
i just can't get those words out of my mind,
it just keeps on going on and on,
yes, i know i had to respect her but pls,
i'm make of blood and i can feels.
though it might seems nothing to her but it really really hurts me,
anybody understands how i'm feeling rite now?
i feel so unwanted and unloved.
it's extremely terrible. i hate it.

i wish boyfriend is right beside me now,
hugging him makes me feel really secure.
although he's not with me but the sms he sent me after i tell him i feel so unloved makes me feels so fortunate to have him.
he said,
nobody support, i will. no one loves you, i do.
he is so so sweet can?
tat's the reason why i love him so damn much! =D

i feel bad for not taking over ting's shifts.
but i really hate working night shifts now.
i dunno wad the heck makes me feel this way.
and i dunno why sitel now wants contract le lor.
damn irritating lah.
cos when ppl can't make it,
they have to find high and low just for replacements,
to make it even worse,
nobody is available!!!!!
i really dun like the system la.
it sucks, totally!

maybe meeting boyfriend tomolo.
he's asking me to decide again.
hate making plans and decisions.
i'm just too lazy to think! =p

check my schedule and i dun have any work slots!!!
WTH?

2007-03-06T19:44:00.000+08:00

pictures from my friend, he took all this pictures one.

damn nice rite.. =D

i'm getting better after taking some panadols.

stayed home the whole of today.

won't be meeting boy because he didn't get any sleeps today.

yes i do feel disappointed and down,

but i guess i have to be a understanding gf.

i just miss him so much. ='(

2007-03-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

i want to go to zoo/night safari with baby and my darling friends.
i want to go escape and play water splash, panasonic and with boy.
i want to go to the euro fun fair before it ends on 18th march.
i want to have porridge at kovan late at night.
i want to eat pizzas, spring chicken with boy/friends.
i want to go cycling with boy at east coast.
i want to study with boy when he ord.
i want a digital camera to take lots of pics.
i want my sister's nokia 7390.
i want to be rich with endless money to use.=p
i want to be a better friend.
i want to be slimmer.
i want to go party world with hel and ling.
i want to have late night talks with the girls.
i want to be happy. i dun wanna be a crybaby.
i want to get married. ( i know i'm mad) =p

feeling so bored now.

i miss my dear boy. =(

2007-03-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

suppose to work from 4pm to 8pm today.
but suddenly feel damn unwell..
so yeah, approach alvin and tell him,
so thankful to alvin and jane who are so understanding,
i dun need mc to go back early which jane approve.
so sweet. =)
take 2 extra strong panadols down and i'm feeling better,
didn't take a rest cos i can't get to sleep though i'm ill.
it's a pity tat i can't go cycling with boy tomolo. =(
but dear said we will go once i've recovered! =)

read hel's blog and feeling very bad now.
she told me not to be angry after reading,
well, i'm not the least angry but feels damn guilty.
every sentence that she mention are true.
i've always been a bad friend,
and i know i can never be a good friend.
i'm always so selfish, so self centred and i dun care how my friends feels.
friends around me had been tolerating my unbearable demands and stubbron character.
i know they care,
i know they meant well,
but just like wad hel said,
i take things for granted.

i wanted to be a good friend too.

but i can never be one.....

dear friends,
thanks for tolerating my temper and nonsenses.
thanks for all the care and concern.
thanks for being there for me when i needed you.
thanks for protecting me even though i'm older ( by a few months)
thanks for treating me like a princess.
thanks for all your supports and encouragements.
thanks for giving in to me all the time.
thanks for being such great friends.

you people have been great friends....
pardon me for being a bad friend.
i love you all. =D

2007-03-04T11:41:00.000+08:00

have been working for the past 5 days for good.

feels so sian to go work everyday lah,
didn't expect them to give me all the slots though.
but more work means more income which is good lah. =)
there's so much to write but my mind went blank and i didn't know wad to write...
went out wit boy and also with my 3 darling friends, ling, ting and hel on different days. and eptic movie sucks, a movie with no story line and throughout the show i dunno wad they are talking about.. 2.5/5 stars for it,

give 2.5 cos some parts are quite funny. =/

well, shall let the pics do the talking den.... =)

pics taken on jan 30 with ling's digital camera

outing with the 3 girls...

with geradine...

lastly, with my lover boy!!!!!

till den...

2007-02-23T22:32:00.000+08:00

went out with ling, ting and hel on wednesday for a small get together.
i hope i didn't remember the wrong date. =p
had dinner at carl's junior and watch norbit the movie at ps.
the indian guy wants to check our ic cos it's a NC 16 show,
i mean, we dun look like we are over 16?
anyway. the show is pretty funny..
it's a mixture of love and comedy.
still rem the sight when the fat lady washing the car,
wearing sexy outfits and yeah bikinis!!!
the lifeguard went " eh, did you have your bottems on?" so the fat lady lift up her tummy which covers her bottem and show the guy!
damn funny i tell you!
and oh ya... you can see the fat lady's nipples, i doubt she got wear bra lor..
too big for a bra to fit also lah....lols...
no wonder NC 16 lah..... =p
after which we have steamboat at ting's house,
reach home like 3am le.

went to work ytd and work was pretty okie.
meet up with derrick to pass him the pineapple tarts..
and he offered to drove me back in a car!!!!
lols. his driving skill okie lah..
talk to him quite alot and it's a pity that he's not working in sitel le..
he is a nice guy lah... =)
hope to see him around... =D

I'm so stupid to agree to that gal to help her today from 9am to 1pm lor.
she very smart la..ask me to work for her,
keep on beg and beg and persuading me.
useless me so soft hearted,
help her out and i suffer myself.
wad the heck lah..

work today was okie with sihui around.
we were like saying the malay girl doesn't look like 16,
says sihui looks like 20+, den sihui say she look like a mother already.
damn funny lah. lols..

tomolo working from 3pm to 10pm.
hope work was okie with no queue calls lah..
and will be meeting boy on sunday!!!
whee~~~

will upload pics asap.
till then... =)

2007-02-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

this year de lunar new year just sucks!
damn. with not many ang baos and seeing ppl i dun like..
just wish that it would be over!!!
ytd my mother's side de relatives came over for a gathering.
saw cute cute melody and she is like so small la.
she ain't afraid of us anymore like she used to do.
anyway, there's like a few of my cousins running about, screaming their lungs out
and trying to be mischevious!
they are the more unpopular ones around us,
cos we can't stand the sight of them, touching and taking things as if it's theirs,
slamming and locking the doors,
using my computer as if they are glued to the chair,
and of course more for me to say.
so my sister jul go and lock my mother's room,
without knowng the keys are inside,
so as to prevent them going in and mess things up.
we try using safety pins and paper clips to unlock but failed,
and we were like damn worried cos my mum will start yelling away.
and those uncles just know how to say who's the one who lock the door and all,
i mean, help out to unlock and not just stand there and shout all over!
my father actually wants to climb over to the master bedroom through our study room,
my mother shouted and cry for him to stop.
sounds damn dramatic lor,
but really very dangerous lah.
so in the end he knock it off and buy a new one to fix back..
if it isn't for those bo ka si kids,
this will not even happen lah.
it's like wtf lah...
the thought of them makes me wants to shout at them and slap them hard.
they are spoilt by their mothers le lor.
damn no manners and rude lah.
touch my hp and used my com for hours lor.
tell them to stop they like deaf one,
ignore my presence and words lor.

i dun wanna talk bout them le.
thankful i only get to see them like once every year.
if not i really can vomit blood i tell you.
spoilt brats!

i miss my boy. =(

2007-02-19T13:12:00.000+08:00

first of all,
thanks to all my friends who sent birthday wishes to me,
be it in msn, sms, friendster or through tagging my blog,
i really appreciated and very happy that there were still ppl who remembers my birthday.
yes, i'm finally 19, can't imagine myself 20 years old next year la.
it's like no more 1 on my birthday le. =(
anyway, didn't celebrate my birthday since friends were not free and all.
went over to stay over at dear's house till this morning den returned back home.
called mac delivery for dinner and watch some tv shows and coffee,
my boy is so blur lah, he mistook the salt as sugar and put it in the coffee and give me drink!!!
i laugh so hard tat i almost drop off my chair!
can u imagine how salty the coffee tasted? it's awful lah.
and because our macflurry is so sweet, dear offer to try them with coffee powder,
you koe those 3 in 1 coffee packet?
it makes it taste so much sweeter tat we throw the macflurry away.
haii. tat boy of mine, asked me to accompany him yet he asked all his friends over for mahjong sessions and playing cards..
den they stayed till like around 6am den leave lor,
i dun wanna join them cos i'll be very bored just by sitting there watching them play.
so i'm in his room slacking through and watching tv.
i'm super bored okie, and he just comes in once in a while to coax me a little before joining them again.
i can't blame him though, he ain't sensitive de,
but i just loves the way he is. =)

will be meeting dear later on for a movie i tink.
shall update soon people!!! =)

2007-02-17T23:33:00.000+08:00

it's chinese lunar new year everybody!
i'm like so happy now cos my com is alright again!!
i can go friendster, blogspot, hotmail,
in fact any websites now! =)
i just hope it remains like this for a long time..
oh please, i'm addicted to com!

meet hel ytd and she give me a little surprise!
both hel and ting bake me a cake,
it's like damn sweet of them..aww..
though it doesn't look appealing to me,
but it taste pretty good.
thanks sisters, love you girls!

i'll be turning 19 in less den 30 mins time,
feel so old lah but at the same time,
i've grown up!
thinking back when i was younger brought back many memories,
it's like so much things have happened all these years.
hope everything will be fine for me eh? lols.

will be going to bai nian den meet up with my boy.
and perhaps i'll be staying over at his place.
i'm looking forward to tomolo!

oh well.
happy birthday to me, i said.

2007-02-14T10:04:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy today!!!!
know the reason behind it?? lols.
remember in the last entry i've said how pathetic i'll be today when my boy can't celebrate valentine's with me?
he asked me to called him yesterday and tell me that he had taken half day off so that he can accompany me!!!
woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
feeling damn happy bout it!
dear so sweet as to take the effort to take off for me! =D
will be going to paya lebar, queensway to buy my cny clothes,
i've got one but my mum say it's too dull, so yeah,
hunting clothes today and hopefully i found the one i like!
if there's still time, probabely we catch a movie and have dinner together..
though i know there wouldn't be surprises like chocolates, big bouquet of roses or cute teddy bears,
i'm contented with him spending the day with me. =)
oh ya, my boy make me a card and he already like start doing it while i haven touched anything yet!
dun blame me but my stupid printer.
i can't print anything at all even when i bought the ink.
can only give it to dear some time later.
damn it!

den shall be all for today.
HAPPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!!!! ^^

2007-02-13T12:42:00.000+08:00

tried a lot of times before getting this new blogger done.
have been working which feels pretty good,
not that i like work but at least it keeps me busy.
get to know a new girl which i somehow forgots her name,
she's a malay girl who is new in sitel,
she was being trained by me cos she got some wrong addresses and all the previous days.
she explained to me, telling me that actually it's not really her fault.
u see, some ppl are trying to get her do wrong things so tat she will be scolded or even worse,
get warning letters and all.
that's how scheming one can get when they dislike you.
hearing her story just makes me feels so angry, at the same time sorry for her.
well, wad goes around comes around..=/
and one of the shift leader dun seems to like her, tat's from my point of view though.
sitel ppl makes me have goosebumps all over...
why can't ppl be real?

suppose to meet hel and ting later but i last min decided not to join them.
i'm very tired already. ytd work 8 hours with only one 15 mins break,
somemore not exactly a break when i need to help the girl see if she got do anything wrong not.
learnt that she likes to watch chinese shows and she likes Elvin ng,
the guy who acts as niu lang on 9pm show.
she's like so crazy over him lah. lols..
and i show him wu zui's pic,
and she goes, he so handsome!!!
lols...

will be lonely tomolo.
yes, it's valentine's day yet i'm spending it alone.
he is in camp from 8am to like 6.30pm.
u guys must be thinking can celebrate after that wad,
but he reach home at least 7 or 8 plus,
there's no point of meeting.
he said he can't get leaves too cos too many ppl take already.
how sad it is when you have a bf/gf yet they can't spend that special day with you?
i dunno if i wants to go out tomolo not..
i dun wanna see girls with bouquet of roses,
looking pretty, smiling so happily while helding their boyfriend's hand.
the sight of that makes me wants to cry...
the sight of couples everywhere makes me envious.
i feel terrible yet there's nothing i can do...
he apologised but the emptyness i felt can't be filled.
i hate to be be alone without him. ='(

my 19th birthday is like 5 days away..
ppl will be like excited and happy.
but i feel nothing within me.
my birthday will be another lonely one.
no friends to celebrate with, no gatherings nor dinner together.
and at most a few close friends will remember only.
and i doubt my boy can celebrate much for me when my birthday falls on the 1st day of cny..
no shops will be opened too...
very pathetic i can say.

forget bout all that.
i dun see a point to rant anymore on how unfair or how pityful i am.
will be making a card for my dearest boy despite the fact that we won't be spending valentine's together.
work on thursday and friday!!!

2007-02-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

work was peaceful yesterday,
everything were good and customers were alright.
will be working tomorrow and friday,
so i hope it will be just as good as yesterday.
this tall and tanned guy came to work yesterday and i can see some girls are getting gaga over him.
he's actually one of the agent's boyfriend, heard from sihui say he very good one,
he came all the way down in the night ( i tink so) to pass his gf food!
awww.... so sweet rite!!!
anyway, girls at work ytd were either stealing glances from him or tried to chat him up.
maybe sitel doesn't have tall and tanned, den pretty good looking de guy bah,
tat's why when girls see him, they melt like ice cream. -_-
but unfortunately i didn't melt though he sat just right beside me,
perhaps he already got gf and the fact that i dun like his voice.
it's pleasant but sounds a bit gay to me.
i like man man voice like my boy de!!!
melts~

sihui was saying how salhan's scooter's seat matches his brown shirt.
and we were like surprise to see him and i didn't know tat u can speed with scooter!!!
and i dunno wad the heck it is when my name is on the board again, this time to see either jane or daniel.
damn.
i hate seeing them.
not because i dislike them but well, they are my managers,
i just have this phobia when seeing them lah. =(

now den i know that people are self centred.
alrights, let's not say all, we used the word "MOST".
i believe one will be self centred.
dun come and tell me something like,
ohh, i'm not self centred, i always think of others before me.
please, humans are naturally selfish.
of course compare to friends,
ownself got the privileged/ advantages would be better.
dun denied cos it's all facts.
i myself is self centred,
i mean hello, who don't?
now den i know that friends among you can be equally selfish.
no used pointing the fingers around or start gossiping who and who is the one,
they tink of themselves first den thought of you,
that's how cruel the reality is,
no matter how damn long you've known your friends.
but i still believe there were ppl who puts others before them.
but sadly, these people are near to exist..
soon, there won't be any left.
that's how i felt today. i just came to realise it...
i'm emotional lah. =/

guess that will be all...
goodnight people. =)

2007-02-03T13:09:00.000+08:00

PERVERT FROM NTU

KENNEDY'S CAR ACCIDENT WITH THE BIKE

finally am back for blogging.
have been slacking at home most of the time,
work loads have been little so yeah,
stay home and rot!!!! =D

recently too much things had happen,
like kennedy met with an accident with a bike while he's learning to drive,
the biker "fly" off the bike but thank god, he only suffer some minor injuries.
as for kennedy, he might be charged to court for being inconsiderate driving.
well. hope everything goes smoothly and well for him!!! good luck brother!!

and i also met with a pervert on msn.
he added me, claim to be someone from hougang sec,
said his name is kevin, same age as me, and same class with me before.
but he bloody refused to tell me who the farking hell he is!!!!
and he trick me into accepting the webcam, while assuring me that after starting the webcam he will let me know who he is and he will show me his pic,
and that i'm so foolish to believe wad he said,
for goodness sake, he show me his "thingy" and wants me to give comments!!!!!!!
and of course when he had "shiok" already,
keep on ask those pervertic questions and when i asked who he is,
he changed the subject and smart of him,
he went offline!!!!!
so i tell fisherman bout it,
said he will help me to find out who tat bastard is.
and so damn fast of him, he gt me his pic!!!!
and he even know that he studied in NTU!!!!
and he help me chu le yi kou qi by commenting tat jerk till he switch off his webcam!!!!
thanks a million fisherman!!!! =D
guys, i'll show you the "glorious" face of that guy,
his pic is right at the top of this entry..
though he puts on a shade which i tink he dun look good it that too,
but somehow can catch a view of how he look like..
and oh well, he might be friends around you!!!!
and i would like to apologise to one person.
and that is wei cheng, duckie.
cos once that bastard say he is kevin, i asked sihui whether there's someone by the name of it,
she said wei cheng called kevin ( name given by himself),
and think back he used to be quite ti ko one....
so i thought it was him...
but the truth is out.... it's not duckie!!!!!!
oh man, i felt damn guilty inside,
though i know he won't be viewing my blog,
but once again,
i'm sorry wei cheng for mistaken you as the pervert!!!
a million sorry to you...

other den that,
everything is well and good.
i just learnt from my boyfriend that the longest we didn't meet is like,
2 weeks!!!!
tat's the time when he got confinements and had to stay in camp..
now only 1 week never see him i miss him like mad le...
lols. just love that boy of mine! <

will be working tomolo from 2pm to 6pm,
and dear is fetching me home tomolo!!!!!!!
whee~~

2007-01-30T23:43:00.000+08:00

meet hel darling right after work ytd.
had yong tau foo for our dinner after which,
we went back to my house area and talk all the way till 1 plus!!
talk so much that both of us hardly talk about de,
and of course we took loads of crazy pics (as above)
i like hanging out with her, tat's when i'm more being myself.
the real me. =)

was shocked bout xu wei lun's death.
it's like how could god take away such a sweet, pretty and talented girl away?
her death is such a big blow for her family and friends.
but i guess all these are fated... if it meant to be you,
there's nothing you can escape away.
and it make one realised and cherish more for the ppl around us.
like i've always said, cherish before it's gone.
how true that quote is huh?
anyway,
i hope she rest in peace and she is happy in the nether world.
prays*

well. i guess tat will be all for tonight?
good night world!

2007-01-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

wad had happen to blogspot when i'm just away for a few days!!!!!?????
why can't i place 2 pics together like i used to do back then??
omg omg omg!!!!
my entry will be really long if this continues.
wth!!!!

went out with hel ytd to bugis.
she wanna show me the retro dresses she had bought,
and she also wanna get earrings and shoes to go with all the 3 dresses.
so we went to bugis point where she get her stuffs.
it's the first time i've gone to the place.
i've never heard of it before in my 18 years of life.
i know i sounded too exaggerating, but hey, it's a fact!
look around for the perfect shoes but hence,
didn't get any in the end cos hel had too many pairs of heels!
but the heels are pretty nice. so tempted!
but both of us get ourselves 3 pairs of earrings each at $5!!!!
saw so many nice clothes and stuffs,
oh my!!!!
i even saw the fake eye lashes that i've always wanted to get,
but think back, i'll only be wasting money cos neither hel nor i knows how to put them on.
and i dun wan to end up like a silly idiot with half of the fake lashes on other places of my face!!
it's horrible to tink of that now though!
after tat we had dinner at burger king,
i just love anything with mushrooms!
it's damn delicious lah.
den we walk around bugis street,
den back to bugis junction to take neo prints!!!!
it's been quite some time since i took pics with hel,
the outcome still pretty nice lah.
loves the new machines. shall return there some day i promise!!!
after which mel meet us and she had her dinner at long john sliver.
took bus back to kovan walk a bit and i must really thanks both hel and mel for accompanying me to dear's house to get the pineapple tarts!
thanks a lot 2 pretties!!!!

i went up to dear's house and it's the first time i'm in the house without him.
feels quite awkward at first but after tat was feeling better cos his mum talks to me. =)
his cousin and little brother was suprised to see me though. hahas.
learned to put the tarts nicely in the bottles from dear's mother.
she say i pick up fast yeah? lols. i can make a few bottles at one shot k.
den i have red bean soup too!!! so nice!
had to thank hel and mel for waiting for me downstairs despite the cold wind is blowing at them.
so damn touched!!!!

took a bus back to hel's house and use com till 1 plus den go home.
mel got so many guys adding her in msn!!!!
i go omg when the endless of contacts waiting to be accepted.
and once she's online, at least got 5 ppl talk to her okies..
hel and i go stunned lah. lols.
she's so popular with the guys lah. weet weet!
finally saw the tattoo on her b**bs le.
it's a flower like tattoo!
i admire her courage to do so,
i've always wanted one on my spine area,
but i scare i'll regret and scare pain too.
lols.

will be meeting hel and ting tomolo to get clothes from ip zone
den meet my dear boy!!!! =)

pics with the gals as shown below.
goodnight people!

2007-01-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

no work for me for this whole week.
maybe because i hand in my schedule late,
so they give others who had given their schedule earlier.
but hey, they didn't send me an sms to submit shifts lor..
cannot blame me too correct?
good to have 1 whole week without slots lah,
can go out and slack at home, enjoy life.. lols.

today is our 1 year and 6 months anniversary!!!
time flies and we've been together for quite a long time.
and yes, i've finally broke his longest relationship record!!!!!
but hence, we still have to broke my longest record : 2 years!
but i believe we can break the record, and even longer!!!! =p
too bad, i can't see him today.
suppose to meet up but he had to accompany his father to send the pineapple tarts,
so sad....

oh yeah,
ytd went to work, from 8pm to 12am.
everything was okie though...
except for a few irritating ones.
i got a call from this customer,
she hell talks alot. and damn,
her questions are like damn weird and funny.
she ask me if i like school,whether i'm a prefect in primary school,do i look pretty in ties and skirts,
wad colour is my school uniform, whether i still keep my primary school uniforms, wad primary school i go to,
how old i am, and she tells me she look pretty in tie and skirt and she everytime wear uniform to excercise!!!!
i was like huh, wad the hell, thinking whether she called to chat or make an order,
so in between i cut her off, ask for her number +address + orders,
double confirm everything and she everything yayaya, in a excited tone.
at tat point i'm thinking whether she is making a prank on me, but i tink nothing of tat,
send over the order.
den sway sway, it's really a prank call lor.
the restuarant manager called and ask for me,
told me he can't locate the customer, the line always engage,
den he check the street directory and say the address tat the customer gave,
it's right under a bridge lor.
i'm like wtf? surely no ppl will live under a bridge rite, somemore she give me unit no.
and the manager humourous one, say maybe the customer build a little house under the bridge or it's a cementry.
and when i say maybe the customer a bit out of mind, he laugh so loud lor. =/
but he say he still will send the order lor. very good manager. =)
if it's other manager hor, i'm sure i am dead meat by now.

will be meeting hel tomolo after which i'll collect the pineapple tarts from dear's home.
well well.
good night to all.

2007-01-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

got so many standbys recently at work.
my pay for this month will be super little!!!
out with hel was pretty good,
i finally got myself the 1gb mmc card,
stupid hel tell me it's 29.90 but heck,
it's 45.90 for my card, cos different fone different mmc.
hestitate for quite some time before i decided to buy it,
oh ya, i hate tat salesman attitude!!!
after which we took bus to rivervale mall,
get long johns for dinner and off to hel's house.
reach home like 10 plus..

meet dear on wednesday to get the pineapple tarts for my fathers' collegues.
suppose to went for work but luckily last min salhan called and said airon replace me!!!
we had zi cha at his house there de coffee shop,
first time had a taste of "tian ji",
it taste so much like chicken except that the meat is softer and there were alot of bones and less meat,
the stupid bone poke my upper gum, it's so super sharp and it's so painful lah.
but i like the toufu thingy, so nice!!!!!!
stayed around till 12 plus before returning back home.

work on thursday was really okie.
not much calls and customers are pretty good.
didn't manage to get customers for the pineapple tarts..
i'm too scare to approach them,
i hate rejections lah.

work from 8pm to 12am on sunday.
hope there's no queue calls lor.
i wanted to work on new year's eve,
10 bucks per hour!!!
good money isn't it? lols.

well. suppose there will be all.
goodbye and night to all. =)

2007-01-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

work from 5pm to 9pm.
everything was good, as there weren't much calls.
dear came to meet me in tamp and we had new york pizza, tian pu la and xxl chicken.
i dun wan to eat at the tables there so dear and i da bao our food and went to the nearby blk to eat.
after which, we watch a movie call kong fu mahjong in century square.
after tat stay around my house till 3 plus den go home.

sigh~
i miss my boy dearly.
he is so so so busy today till he dun even have time to sms me.
so far i only got 2 msg from him around 7 plus, and tat's it.
i dunno wad he's busy about too...
but if he is busy, at least let me know that he will msg me once he gets his things done,
but he just "disappear" after the 2nd msg,
dun he know that i'll be worried bout him?
haii. pms so my mood sucks badly.
am getting so paranoid.

anyway. will be meeting hel tomolo.
shall update some other time.
good night to all. =)

how i wish you are right beside me now.
i miss you...

2007-01-12T12:14:00.000+08:00

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen,
nor touched...
but are felt in the heart.

how true this quote is eh?

love can be just so magical...
love can let a independent woman become a little woman beside her man.
love can make one change himself/herself because of the love of their life.

read Amanda koh's blog and it melts my heart.
she post pictures of her boyfriend and her, along with some pictures were some captions.
though it's not a entry full of mushy poems or confessions of love,
but you can feel the sweetness in the love between them.
the pictures and captions tell us all the way when they first fall in love, the happiness and sorrows.
it's just a short preview of their love life, yet it tells me so much,
touched me deeply.
tink she do this for her bf who is turning 19.
it just makes me go awwww.... so sweet!

love can be so sweet indeed.

i might be envious of hers,
but mine isn't tat bad either.
think back of the times i spent with my boy this 1 year plus really brings memories back to me.
we started out as friends, and den the constant smses and spending long hours on the phone,
and den to feelings for each other and to the time we are finally together.
through all these times i dun receive little gifts and roses,
we dun go to posh restuarants or wadever tat needs money,
but time spend with him makes me feel blessed and happy.
my boy is no romantic and he would never to a sweet talker,
but just a i love you or i miss you said by him will melts my heart.
he might appears to be so man-looking,
but he still will be very sweet and cute in the presence of me.
although sometimes we do have different point of views,
we do have minsunderstandings and quarrels,
but eventually everything will be okie really soon.
i need to thank him for all his patience, care, love and concern towards me.

thank you my dear,
for everything you've done for me.
loving you to bits and pieces. <3

2007-01-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

currently damn pissed off.
my msn was hacked by some unknown aliens!!!!
my friend from msn talk to me and he asked me why i asked him if he was horny this morning.
i was like huh? wad the hell is he talking about!!!???
i'm not even online this morning!!!!!
i'm like watching tv all the way till 1pm before using the com.
and i won't ask such dumb questions one lor...
okies, even if i were to really ask him,
okies, it's time to use some common sense,
why would i ask him only now since i've know him for around 2 to 3 years???
oh please, that question is so stupid and dumb.
perhaps it's a woman who is so desperate in the morning
or
it may be a guy who is a gay trying to ask my friend tat.
and i just got to know from zhi rong the same thing.
tat person dun have display pic and after asking the dumb question,
he/she went offline.
i wonder who the hell hack my account and disturb my male friends!!!!!!

to the most childish, ignorance, nothing-better to do hacker,

hello to you, i must said you are capable to actually hack into my msn.
you need ppl to put our hands together and clap and cheer for you since you are so fucking brillant to hack into ppl's account?
oh well, you must be so damn free since you've got the time to hack into ppl's msn and said silly stuffs before leaving in a huff.
perhaps you've got no friends because you are so wu liao to do such childish acts.
maybe you dun even know how to set a new account for yourself.
i pity you that you are so desperate as to ask my guy friends all these silly questions!!!
and i can only say tat you are so fucking stupid to do tat you know, and naive enough to think tat by hacking into my account, you can make ppl have the wrong ideas of me?
i'm sorry to tell you that your plan had failed very badly and you can't frame me at all.
i'm not afraid of your threats and constant disturbings to me!!
i believe i dunno you and you dunno me.
so stop all your idiotic acts and have a life of your own alrights?
stop being so stupid to as try to frame me up and all.
and even if i were to know you,
if you aren't happy bout me, talk face to face with me lah,
you dun have to get all these things done yeah?
please lah you, i suppose you are already a very annoying person le,
dun make ppl hate you to the core yeah?
hackers like you are so damn silly and 100% naive lor.
so just.....

GET A FUCKING LIFE AND GET OUT OF MY WAY!!!!!!!!

2007-01-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

PINEAPPLE TARTS AT $14 (SMALL) AND $20 (BIG)!!!!!

people will be wondering when the hell since i've become a pineapple tarts seller.
i'm helping behalf of my boyfriend to sell pineapple tarts.
his parents are making those delicious tarts for the upcoming new year.
so since my boy is so filial, i think i should do my part as his gf. laughs~

to some people, it might seems pretty expensive,
but i can try to lower the price, a little discount should be no problem!=D
but it's once in a year, and you dun really get to eat pineapple tarts as often as you wants too rite?
it's only for once in a year, it's worth it lah.
wad's more, the pineapple tarts are really nice.
it's not because of my boy den i praise one alrights?
i've tasted them before and it's good.
i tell no lies. 100% assurance of tasty and nice!!!!
i've also asked my father to ask his collegues and my mum to ask our relatives.
btw,i'll take pics of the tarts and post it up asap once my boy give me the samples.
so if you guys are interested to have the orders, let me know through my tag board okies?
do support us hor!!!! thanks a million!
good night to all. sweet dreams!

PLEASE SUPPORT US!!!! THANKS!!!

2007-01-10T18:00:00.000+08:00

schedule was bad for me this week!!!
only got 2 working days and the other days will be on standbys.
so sian. want to earn more also hard...

work for bloody 3 hours on monday.
went to work at 3pm and return at 6pm with sihui.
suppose to end work at 7pm but there hadn't been much calls,
ros asked if we want to go back, cos i'll be meeting hel later for porridge ar kovan,
so i thought of leaving 1 hour early might be good.
so after work, sihui bought new york pizza and both of us bought chocolate cream from long john,
though it's very sweet but we both love it! =D
after which i meet hel at kovan.
we had our porridge with preserved vegetables, which is my favourite!
with some sweet and sour fish, wu xiang and lu rou. hehe.
hel make a baby cry. LOLS.
she didn't do anything, she just look at the baby, smile at him,
the baby wailed so LOUD!
it happen not only once, but twice!!!
i laughed like shit. lols.
return to hel's place to use com and stayed till 1 plus.

ytd meet dear and again, we had porridge again but it's near my house there de 24 hrs coffee shop.
half way through our yummylicious porridge,
it rain so heavily.
dear and i got no choice but to run our way back to my place.
btw, both of us were completely drenched!!!
my boy is so caring lah,
he is super worried bout my safety.
he make sure he held my hand tight throughout the "runaway".=p
love him to bits!!!

will be only going to work on saturday.
and it seems so far away...
alrights people,
so long...

2007-01-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

sorry for the late updates!
tat's wad i've been doing recently though.

14 dec 2006. the 246. =)

Christmas eve with my darlings!!!!

Christmas with boyfriend!!!

out to vivo to get farewell presents!!!!

30/12,lunch buffet with ah gong, aunt jenny and uncle keith!!

31/12, end of year 2006 with boyfriend and best friend

meet dear and we went to vivo city's giordano to get the jeans my mum wanted changed.
i only know to get the same jeans from there cos i bought it days ago for her.
she insisted on getting tat pair of jeans, so i got no choice but to get it change for her!!!
bring dear to carl's junior to eat, and he kind of like the burger and drinks tat can be refill!!! lols.
get back to plaza sing to look for geraldine's bithday present,
bought her a billabong pencil case at 22.90. damn expensive for 1 piece of thing,
but wad to do, i promise to get her 1 present.
took neoprint with dear and it turns out nice!!! happy~
after which hel meet us up and we watch curse of the golden flower starring gong li, zhou ren fa and jay chou.
i get pretty bored watching the show. lots of killings, fightings and wars.
i dun really enjoy the show. =(
we didnt really countdown and had late supper at kovan there de 24 hours kopitiam.
we had porridge with salted egg, kong ba, xian cai, lalas. it taste so good! =)
reach home around 2am. tired like shit~

1/1/07. geraldine's chinese lunar birthday. =)

happy 11th birthday geraldine!!! =D

3/1/07
had not been going to work for a long time.
kind of forget wad to do and say already.
prays hard nothing terrible or bad is gonna happen tomolo for me,
let it been a nice one for a new year 2007!!!! =)
tomolo work will be from 2pm to 10pm, have to work extra hard already.
need to get back the amount i've spend over christmas, presents and the list goes on and on.
anyway, my aunt and uncle keith will be returning to australia tomolo.
will miss them though. too bad i can't send them off as it clash with my work timings. =(
poor geraldine falls really ill on the 1st day of her sch and at the same time, her birthday!
she look so so sick and her fever went up to 40.2 degree!!!
she had seen a doctor, taken her medicines, but it doesn't help much...
i've been taking care of her, changing the towels in icy cold water to let her put on her forehead.
her fever went up and down, like a roller coaster.
my mum was afraid tat she might get dengue fever again.
just hopes she gets well soon!

alrights, goodbye!

2006-12-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

pictures, pictures and still pictures!

the new members in my house. so adorable eh?

sakae sushi with boyfriend.

ramdom pictures with geraldine.

and of course, not forgetting my cute grandparents.
"forced" them to make a twist one. =P

look real as if i'm really playing the drums?

forget bout the weird looking face of geraldine behind,
the new me with the new haircut+ rebonding+ colouring my hair.

good bye!

2006-12-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!!

baby,

words cannot never express how much i cherish this relationship between us.
i've grown up alot because of you. you really make a great impact in a part of me.
you are the piece of missing puzzle i've been waiting to make my life a complete one. so fortunate to have you by my side.
thanks for everything you've done for me all these times when we are together.
love you always. =)

2006-12-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

christmas is like just 5 days away!!!
till now i still dunno whether we are meeting on christmas eve to celebrate not..
hel is in malaysia now and we can't decide on anything now though.
and december is a month where there's so many things going on..
my mother's birthday on the 23rd, sihui and ting's 18th birthday on 27th, my aunt coming back on the 28th and 31st for counting down to year 2007!!!!
my pocket is gonna burn a big hole with so many celebrations coming up!!!
this month i work very little. so i doubt there's more than 400 this month!!!
oh god. i need to save already! save!!!!!!!!!! save!!!!!!!!!!!!! save!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and damn. i need to lose 5kg!!!! getting fatter and fatter. =(

nowadays the weather is super nice to sleep.
rain rain and more raining this december christmas season!!

and oh ya,
am looking forward to 22nd as it's dear and my 17 months anniversary!!! =)
my boyfriend will be ORD soon!!!
in like 2,3 months time. lols.
recently spend so little time with him cos he's like so busy all the time.
his camp thing is making him so tired all the time. and he spend most of his free time resting.
my poor boyfriend is like working so hard in his camp, and i couldn't do anything to help him.
sad.

got to go already.
good night and sweet dreams...

2006-12-17T00:43:00.000+08:00

hadn't been updating my blog for a long time.
i've completely forgotten wad i've done for the past few weeks.
oh yeah, i got myself a new hairstyle and a new colour too.
and it costs me like 170 for total.

wanted to get a nike bag at 40 bucks from a girl selling items online.
still thinking whether i should get it or not,
it's like left with 1 last piece!!! damn.
someone give me comments?

stayed over at dear's house ytd.
bought him a jacket and a t shirt from IP zone and he simply adores it! =)
actually dear and i wanted to cook dinner together one,
but we end up calling mac delivery to settle our dinner!
after which we had mahjong with his friends fromm 11 till 6 plus this morning!!!!
my boyfriend paid all the expenses of the money i lost. =D
and i broke the record of not sleeping at all.
damn. the feeling sucks badly!
i'm like so freaking tired yet i can't get to sleep while my boyfriend was happily sleeping like a log.
he woke up like 12 plus while i work up like 9 plus when we were both sleeping like around 8am?
i had to disturb him so much or he wun be waking up before 3pm one.
he's so cute lah.
you can see him talking to you and in less den 5 mins,
he sleep again!!!!
i dunno it's a compliment or wad. lol.

picures will be uploaded if blogspot doesn't give me any problems!
there were like tons of pictures lah. =)

christmas is coming!
and so were the birthdays of sihui and ting.

so long people.

2006-11-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

went to work as usual today.
everything was still pretty okie except for the fact that there's queue calls!!!!
but luckily, they never extend me also.. =)
see alot of new faces, and they were still hiring ppl still.
i gave hel darling's name to Daniel personally and hel should be getting the call from them pretty soon...=)

saw miao miao and hudah on bus 72.
such a coincidence.. =)

i remember there's this guy who sit beside me ytd.
i suppose he's around my age or perhaps older,
during free time he started using the paint to write 1, 2,3 and A,B,C and drawing weird lines all over the page.
and when he accidentally draw outline or wad, he will go hai ya before doing everything again...
somehow i find it really funny for a big guy to do all this...

will be meeting hubby on saturday!
and no work for tomolo and saturday!
happy~

2006-11-29T22:22:00.000+08:00

after quite some time of not returning to work,
i actually had the fear of going back.
i thought to myself it's gonna be another long day,
where i'll get nasty customers, queue calls and sl will start asking mt to extend for them.

surprisingly, none had happen to me during my 4 hours of work today!!!
everything went so smooth and well. =)
even the time between 4 plus to 6 there will be queue calls,
but miracle, it did not happen!
just pray hard that tomolo and sunday will be exactly the same like today!!!! =)

amos called me and say jane and daniel dun intend to extend his contract.
i dunno where he heard this news from, or he actually told me but i forgot.
he was like telling me he is gonna to tok to them about this.
as you see, his ACW rates are so high lor.
but most of the time he was like helping out to others la...
they wun care much or less i suppose,
high rate means high rates,
they can't be bother if you help others out or wadever..
amos was asking me if they had extended my contract,
but i thought to myself that chances are pretty low la..
i hadn't been to work and always giving excuses to them,
so yeah, doubt they will extend also la...

anyway.
why is it tat one only will cherish upon losing?
my ex msg me telling me tat he broke up with his gf.
he was telling me tat he had hurt her too much and all...
there's this quote, zao zi jin ri, he bi dang chu?
haii. how can they let go a relatioship tat had been so hard to build up?
wad is love? i really dunno...

2006-11-26T19:29:00.000+08:00

today my mother's side relatives came over to my place.
it's been ages since i last saw them cos we stay too far from each other.
we never talk much to each other....
it's like last time the bond between us is gone.
or maybe they have all grown up already.
well. they were plain rude kids.
tat's wad they are now.

let's say my cousin who is 2 years my senior first.
she is damn rude, damn lazy and damn eats alot!
she eat so much yet she's the type tat wun get fat one.
she's lazy because when my mother ask her to bring some food back for her mother,
she say she is lazy to do so. i mean, is it so hard to take a few extra bags home?
she is damn rude because when my maternal grandma ask her whether she know how to go to the place she wants not, she reply to her saying, "i'm not a zhu tou also!"
before this, she ask us how to go to the place one lor. wad the fark?
it is so damn hard to reply nicely to her? she completely had no respect for elders!!!!

as for the other 2 younger cousins,
they, exactly the same had no respect to my grandma too!
they would talk to her rudely and all.
and when they see grandma's hands are full of things and so heavy,
they never offered to help her out at all!!!!!!
they just mind their own business.
can't they show the simplest respect to elders?
make my blood boiled!!!!!

enough of that le...
bye ppl!

2006-11-22T14:14:00.000+08:00

sometimes we just have to feel it when the naked eye couldn't see the truth.

took quite some time to blog this.
have to upload the pics and all yet something crop up.
went out with hel last sat,
took tons of pictures as shown below...

have gone for my blood test and it cost me 85 bucks!!!!
the result will be out pretty soon.
damn scare la..
i tink tat's all bout it.
ciaos ppl.

when love is not there anymore..
nothing can bring it back...

2006-11-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

didn't work on monday and tuesday.
and the feeling of staying home was great.
i mean, it's been quite some time tat i've rested like for a whole day.
but all these lasted just for 2 days.
was suppose to be on standby on wednesday.
got calls from shu fen early in the morning like 7 plus?
didn't pick up cos i'm like so tired lah.
she leave a msg asking me to call back cos there's something urgent.
so i scare i got wrong cases and all so i call back to sitel.
den she ask me to work for her,
saying she activate me since i'm on standby,
and i could take a cab down and claim from her.
so i thought not a bad deal wad, den prepare for 1 hour and reach sitel at 11am.
work till 3pm and went back home.
the pay was like good. i work 4 hours for 33 bucks.
i got 9 bucks for 3 hours. not bad rite?

work was still alright.
queue calls like everyday.
and they were hiring more and more ppl.
and they were getting older and older. =/
never mind bout tat. work is boring!

ytd jul (my sis) and i went down to nan yang poly to attend geraldine's (youngest sis) prize giving ceremony.
i dunno wad the hell are the principal and teachers were thinking on their minds la.
why can't they just giv out the prizes in their school, go all the way there just to receive a prize.
doesn't it sounds stupid?
anyway, we settle down in the auditorium which was big.
speech, concert and follow by giving out the prizes to the kids.
the primary 1s and 2s were like so cute. so small. so innocent. =)
and geraldine gt herself the best conduct in her class. lols.
after which we had our dinner in sakae sushi and it cost like 50 bucks.
damn expensive lah. i can hear jul's heart breaking into pieces when she get to koe how much in all.
i'm really broke already.
tomolo still have to meet hel cos she say we very long never meet le.
oh well. i guess so too. after tat will be going to meet dear at his camp.

some things were only meant to keep as memories,
lock up in a small place in our hearts.

2006-11-13T11:26:00.000+08:00

work ytd was tired.
queue calls constantly.
i just dun have the extra energy to continue...
feel so giddy and vision blur a little when dealing the last call.
and after tat had constant headache.
my health is getting bad already.
i'm getting really worried.
suppose to work today but i dun feel well...
so i msg them and let them know.
i couldn't care much or less.
my health is much more important.

why do one only cherish something/somebody when they lost it?
if things weren't like this...

so long ppl. =)

2006-11-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

return to work after i recover.
well. the promotion lucky draw is driving me crazy.
every order have to ask cust whether they wan to take part not.
so tiring lah. still muz type in their NRIC and can't over write the records.
make a mistake and they call me to like correct me.
this promotion it's not gonna end till next year jan.
i'm like so stress over this, and i just get the fear when i answer calls.

anyway.
i see doctor the other time to get mc yeah?
the doctor say my blood pressure was slightly on the high side.
so as to say, i have blood pressure.
it had been very okie over these years.
my mum said maybe it's due to the fact tat i work irregularly and not getting enough sleep for the past week.
maybe i can't adapt well. =(
the doctor ask me to go back to see her this week.
hope i'll be fine. =/

work today was still alright.
suppose to work at 2pm but shu fen ask me to go in at 1pm.
everything was pretty okie.
madelenie was at work too,
at least got her to accompany talk and joke and laugh.
no queue calls and everything was good.
shu fen even ask madelenie and me to go off at 5pm when we suppose to go at 6pm.
over staff and tat's wad they do.
madelenie and i were like so happy.
so after work accompany her to kelly service to ask them to look for a new job for her.
accompany her smoke before return home alone.
will be working for the rest of this week already.
sure tired one. and friday hel ask me to go concert with her.
i doubt i can make it cos i'll be working from 4pm to 8pm and the concert start like 7pm?
can't find replacements so i got to work.
i got no choice and i can't choose.

call centre this job cannot stay too long one.
it doesn't allow one to stay long i must say.
like wad madelenie said, it's a dying industry.
in maybe a few years time, ppl might be able to just order macdonalds online.
they wun need ppl to sit in office all days to take calls.
just a few clicks and your food will be deliver to me.
sounds not relistic?
we'll just wait and see.

2006-11-03T15:25:00.000+08:00

ytd eat some med and feel slightly better
meet dear like 8 to go compass to get my stuffs.
after which we took alot of pictures as shown below. =)
my dear also sick like me. haii.
won't be going to work today cos i'm like pretty sick still.
can't find replacement so have to see the doc and take mc.
boo. i'm so broke now. =(

tat will be all.
till then.....

2006-11-02T14:19:00.000+08:00

i tink i'm sick.
woke up with a headache, throat discomfort, flu and my whole body aches.
just feel super tired.
this time round really sick already. =(
take down 2 panadols and take cough syrup.
i feel so drowsy. =(

daniel msg me just now ask me to call him.
i walk up already and call him,
he said there's a case ytd,
it's the order which i took for chij school one.
it's like tink they hear the recording say i told them the total amount is 23.40 instead of 25.4o which includes the surcharge of $2.
but i die die say i got say the total with surcharge in every order one.
i learnt from daniel tat the cust refuse to pay the extra $2 more.
i tink he just want to clarify with me this whole thing.
haii. never mind. i'm too sick to tink.

alright. think tat will be all.
ciaos ppl.

2006-10-30T16:38:00.000+08:00

it's been exactly 10 days since i last blog.
schedule for work was like so packed,
all i do everyday was to go to work and sleep,
and the same routine just continue like tat everyday.
for 6 days i work a total of 50 hours.
recently there's alot more calls den befor,
maybe there's soccer matches or wadever,
and maybe tat nowadays ppl gets hungry more easliy,
or maybe the fact tat macdelivery is the only 24 hours restaurant.
tons of thoughts just go through my mind.

i'm like a walking corpse for these couple of days.
can you imagine working long hours and not getting enough sleeps?
my eye bags, dark eye circles and pimples are appearing due to irregular sleep time,
it just gets pretty bad when cosmetics can't cover my flaws!!!!
and who's gonna responsible for all these?
everyday when i look myself into the mirror,
i see a pair of super tired eyes with dark circles, dull skin and pimples,
i gets crazy and wish my eyes were playing tricks on me.

there's like so many queue calls and customers were getting fussy and all.
for example, i work one morning,
and this fcuking chinese auntie gives troubles to me.
she wants her big breakfast's muffin bread not to be burnt, egg to be soft
and fcuking wants her coffee to be thick and well done, to be freshly brew and send over to her!
and she keeps repenting it to me though i've already indicated tat in the delivery instruction,
keep on ask me do i understand do i understand not,
and i just raise my voice a little and say i know and she say i'm very rude.
so i tok very nicely to her though i'm already fuming with anger and
fcuk her man, ask me to repent again to her!!!!!!! (i've repented like at least twice to her)
and you tink it's the end?
definatly not!!!
at around 12 i got her call again despite there's so many other agents.
she complain say her food is not there yet andf say if the food is cold she's nt gonna take it,
say wad she will vomit and all.
so i just just ask her to hold on while i call the restaurant.
and the stupid restaurant takes forever to answer the call,
and all the manager's answer to me is she will get back to the fussy customer.
so i return to the line and the customer starts to scold/say me in chinese,
why take so long to call the restaurant? eat one food so difficult meh?
so i keep my cool and tell her nicely tat the restaurant took a long time to pick up the phone and also to inform her tat the manager is calling her,
and she just anyhow accuses me of complaining to the manager,
say wad i tell the manager she complain and all,
which the fact tat i didn't.
of course i'm got so angry i lose my cool and raise my voice and say i didn't.
and FCUK heR, SHE STILL DUN BELIEVE MY WORDS!!!!!
she even say she's going to ask the manager whether i've complain and i say okie,
she just hang up my call like tat!!!!!!!!!!!!!
let her check all she wants, i did nothing wrong at all.
FCUKING OLD WOMAN!!!!
wants soft egg and muffin not to be burnt, make yourself lah.
wants freshly brew coffee, brew yourself lah,
i wish the coffee is hot till it burnts your tongue and forbids you to talk for a month!!!!!!!!
and there's this auntie who order and talk to me at the same time,
and i tink i was on the phone with her for at least 5-10 mins!!!
she starts telling me tat as a buddhist, it's a sin to waste food and all.
well, but after all, she is better den the old woman!!!

well. at work, things just ain't tat good already lah.
they recruit more and more ppl.
never mind. forget it.

just some pictures i took with hubby when i'm out with him. =)

normal looking(fat and chubby) and distorted looking ( i tink i look like a fox)

love him to bits!!!! loves* and me looking very fair. (edited)

2006-10-20T14:24:00.000+08:00

went to work ytd to replace madelenie.
there were so many queue calls,
i dun have the time to rest a single bit.
ros actually asked me to extend till 2am.
i was like huh, the working hours so long,
wad's more i'm meeting dear already.
so ros ask me to extend till 8pm.
within 5 hours i gt like 100 over calls.
so damn tiring. =(

dear was being sweet enough to come and fetch me off from work.
his old injury at the ankle was creating troubles again.
and now his ankle is swollen and he walks with a limp.
he had difficulties walking and sometimes couldn't balance himself well.
i had to be by his side to hold on to him just in case he falls.
his mother will be bringing him to see the doctor today.
hope his ankle get well soon, it just aches my heart to see him in pain.
poor dear. =(

the day before i had an arguement with my mother.
and i have not been talking to her for the past 2 days.
which was good, at least i wun get to quarrel with her.

sunday will be our 15 months anniversary!!
so happy lah. we have went through alot lah.
and i cherish the relationship with him.

just love him loads lah.=)

2006-10-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

the haze was indeed annoying!!
the weather turns freaking warm and humid,
and all i wanted to was to stay at home, inside my air con room.
i dun wan to breathe those unhealthy air into my lungs!

went out with dear ytd.
we had dinner together and we decided to sing at hougang cc.
dear will be very free this week and next week cos he took off days!!!
so happy bout it lah. =D

went to work today in formal attire.
for god dunno how long,
i have not be wearing formal..
just because there were visitors coming,
those who were working before 6pm have to wear office attire.
no jeans were allowed so i put on a skirt instead,
and it's the very 1st time i wore a skirt to work alright.

shu fen was asking me i wear so nice later going out is it,
i was yeah, feeling real happy cos dear say he will pick me up from work.
den it happen to be such a concidence,
he had to attend his friend's grandfather's funeral so he couldn't fetch me.
imagine my disappointments when i receive his msg. =(
i still though we could have dinner together follow by a movie or just walking around.

too bad, it's another disappointment.

so i carried a heavy heart back home feeling so empty.
it gets super lonely when i had be return home alone for like 30-45 mins of the bus journey.
and i was damn troubled by the big pimple on my face.
i just dunno wad to do with it.
it's damn ugly i tell you.

well. wun be working tomolo but will be replacing Madeleine on thursday though.
haii. i miss dear so much now.

2006-10-16T10:48:00.000+08:00

my mood become slightly better already.
went to dear's house to have dinner with his family on saturday.
i love dear's mum's soups!! got to drink good soups over there. hehe.
my mum dun really brew soups and all.
but at least she knows how to cook now.
she used to dunno anything bout cooking one,
she slowly slowly take up cooking ever since my grandma become ill.
i respect her for her never say die attitude. lols.

dear was bugging me to learn cooking from my mum,
and cook for him to eat!
dear and his brillant idea.
=)

i muz really say a big THANK YOU to LITING.
thank you so so so so much for helping me find replacement.
if not for you, i had to go to work today already.
i treat you eat spring chicken okie? LOLS.

out with dear to catch a movie at toa payoh.
we watch rob-b-hood.
it's the 2nd time we watch the show.
cos we both love the little baby in the show.
the baby was so adorable lah.
dear and i just love babies alot.
they are so cute lah. =D

well. tat's bout it i guess.
bye ppl.

2006-10-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

life is getting more and more stressful.
getting real paranoid.
it's like super long since i feel tat way.
i dunno why i'm feeling tis way,
maybe period so getting damn emotional. damn insecure. damn paranoid.
i just wish life would be much easier for me.
i'm getting tired...

dear will be busy with his job.
and i doubt he will have time for me.
how i wish, sometimes,
he would know exactly how i'm feeling.
=(

happen to go to my ex's blog.
yeah, the same guy who took the pic of dear and me and paste it in his blog.
i am glad tat he had found his love already,
the gurl who had always been with him. =)
though i might hate the things he had done before,
but upon seeing the neo print he took with his gurl,
the dark side of him had disappear,
and i saw the jin long who is so in love.
although we may no longer be friends,
i'll give my full blessings to him.

my life had been totally mess up.
as i've said, i got all paranoid.
might appear as though i'm perfectly alright,
but i'm not okie at all.
it must be the paranoid who is the culprit,
causing me to feel as if i have nobody to cares bout me,
like i'm the only one left by myself.
damn.
i hate tat feeling.

when will i actually feel loved again?

i miss the old times, badly.

2006-10-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

nothing can change who i am.
i'll still be the same old.........

AMANDA TAN.

to all my friends,
thanks to each and every one of you who had been there for me when i need someone.

to my family,
thanks for giving me such a heart warming and happy family.

and to my love,
thanks for everything you have done for me.

i love you guys so much!!!

loves loves*

2006-10-04T12:44:00.000+08:00

i'm back once again.
i intended to blog a few days ago but i just dun have the mood to.
life for me was getting so dead.
was working and working and working.
time spend with my friends, bf and family gets alot lesser.
sometimes i just miss them so much.
i wonder wad am i working for?
i suppose ppl work just merely for the sake of money.
i dun deny i'm one of them though.
how i wish when i wake up one morning and my bed is full of money!!!!
it will be excellent to not-to-work and get money.
well. it can only be a dream.

30 sep

stayed home all day.
juliana (my sister) went out with her friends.
so left my little sister and me.
it's been very long since i last stay at home on a saturday.
cos normally i'll go out on my off days either with friends or my bf.
so as to say i had not spend much time with my little sister.
she is so happy tat i'll stayed home tat day.
so i accompany her, played with her and we take tons of crazy pictures.
we act emo, jump up high and all. lol.

1st oct

work from 5pm to 2am.
den meet hel to go cineleisure wanted to catch a movie one.
but last show was at 2.35am so we missed it.
den in the end go to k box to sing,
sing from 3 plus to around 6am in the morning,
after which we went back home already.

4th oct

meet my dear around my house here.
den just when i wanted to open the door and see my beloved,
i saw 2 firemen rushing here and there,
men were shouting all over, the atmosphere was super tense.
so i hurried down and saw many ppl crowding around,
firemen were running here and there, shouting super loud,
so i faster call hubby and ask him where he is cos there's too many ppl,
and i can't find him.
den realised tat the unit 2 doors away was on fire.
there were no ppl in the house at tat point of time.
luckily nobody was hurt during this fire.
heard from my mum tat they left the iron on a wooden table and it caught fire.
i mean, can't they check properly everything was in order before leaving the house or something?
and hello,
they should have a proper ironing thing wad, where got ppl use table to iron one?
table is for having breakfast, lunch and dinner one lor.
it's so dangerous lah.
these china ppl just very irresponsible lah.
btw, the firemen are cute. awww!!

was on standby on thursday and work ytd.
suppose to work today one.
but woke up today with diahorrea.
cos at home got medicine so dun intend to see doctor.
so i tried looking for replacements again,

BUT AGAIN,
NONE WAS FREE!!!

it's damn hard looking for replacements,
especially it's a weekend.
so left with no choice but to see a doc cos i'm really very uncomfortable.
but the clinics in hougang point and the one is blk 916 were close!!!
they only open for half day. damn.
so the nearest one will be the 24 hours clinic near ting's house.
the doctor say my chang wei was infected = fa yan.
and i'm inside the clinic for less den 5 mins,
they give me my mc and 2 packets of tablets and it cost me 35 bucks!!!
so expensive lah. =(
if somebody could replace me den my wallet wun have a big hole le...

oh ya ya ya...

the stupid indonesia lah,
burn wad burn, make the weather in singapore so bad.
the haze was so thick tat i find breathing so difficult lah.
the PSI highest was like 150!!!!
so crazy lor.it's so bad for health lah.
hope it gets better lah...

okies. show time for lots of pictures!!!

Pictures of geraldine and me.

candid pics of geraldine and me.

jumping up and having fun.
ps: i koe i look super ugly in tat pose. =/

acting emo and all. LOLS.

Pictures with my darling hel!!!!

only best friends will do silly things with you! =)

TIRED

2006-09-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

those were the picture i took with hubby when he meet me on sunday to celebrate my grandfather's birthday. =)
i was suprised tat when i ask to take pics together, he actually agreed without thinking,
he dun like to take pictures one, and see how many pics i've took with him? LOLS.

anyway. ytd was like shit for me.
my sister is sick and i have to bring her to a doctor.
so check the schedule to check who wasn't working and all,
call sitel to get their numbers. call them up,
i koe you guys ain't gonna believe me,
but i've call 14 ppl in all,
and freaking hell, none is free!!!!
can you imagine how critical the situation i'm in,
so desperately wanted someone to replace me just for the 4 hours,
and all the answers i get are the same,
it's either " i've got something on", "i'm busy" ,"i dun tink i can make it" and blah blah blah.
it makes me feel like a pathetic fool.
thanks to sihui and ting,
for making the effort to help me check who is free and all,
i appreciate tat. =D
when you need someone to lend a helping hand,
it's not there.
when they need someone to lend a helping hand,
they EXPECT you to be there.
tat's how realistic the society is.

well. ytd calls were pretty alright.
everything was peaceful,
the 4 hours went by fast and nice. =)
and here's a pic i took when there were no calls,
fugly fat. lol.

okie. tat will be all for today.

WORKING

2006-09-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

i'm back once again. working had been occupying 90% of my life now.
everyday will be like wake up early, get bath, prepare and go to work,
work work work till the time when i'm off work, pack my stuffs and off i go home.
it gets really tiring to ever think of the dull, stressful lifestyle i'm having now.
i tink ppl needs to take a break when they think "it's time",
no point working for lots of hours, getting stupid customers and so stress tat you might get into trouble any minute.
though working means there will be income,
i get to have the money to spend,
but the time i spend with my family and friends were lesser.
i can't remember when is the last time i had a good laugh with my friends,
i can't remember the last time when hubby and i went out and enjoy ourselves.
i can't remember the last time i actually ahd a nice talk with my family.
i wasn't being able to send jo off on wed due to work.
i wasn't being able to accompany hel to get her things due to work. ( she off, i work etc)
i wasn't able to see my family members, i work, they slp, i slp, they either go sch or work.
so yeah, i tink i need a break now.

alright. enough of those DULL stuffs.
went all the way to hubby's house to get his handphone which he left at home a few days before.
he had been so blur lah, in a rush out to camp he actually forgot his phone.
den couldn't contact him at all, make me worried like sick.
so took a cab down to his camp at depot road.
on the way, keep sms his friends, call his friends,
but nobody pick up or reply my msg.
if nobody knows i'm going down to the camp,
den how am i suppose to get in to the camp?
i dun wan to stay outside the camp and waited like a fool under the hot sun.
so finally finally one of his friend answer the call, wake hubby up from his sleep
and get him out of bed.
waited for a good 5-10 mins before my dear guy walk out from his camp.
he asked me to go in to the camp since we hadn't been seeing each other since his confinements.
went in there as a visitor, spend like around 2 hours plus before parting with him.
inside the camp was like so many rules and regulations lah.
cannot take pics, cannot do this cannot do tat.
luckily i dun have to serve army,
i dun wan life like theirs,
no freedom one.

so after waving goodbye to hubby,
took train down to ps to meet hel darling.
had the yummy nasi lemak in the food court,
went around shopping for her things.
she get herself a baleno jeans which cost $29 and it's nice.
den we go to zinc to see bags.
this guy, who tends the shop was talking away on the phone,
was sitting like a gurl, with his left leg over his right leg,
and his voice like all those gurls kind, you koe ah gua's voice?
his voice is something like tat.
hel got herself a golden sling bag which it's nice lah.
unique in it's own way.
den the guy tell us if we get another bag it will be 15% off,
and we get a lifetime membership card and wad can claim free movie tickets.
of course we were tempted lah. like such good deals.
so we look around for another bag for me.
a sliver bag with flower prints caught my eye.
den i was like want to get in so much.
i already set my eyes on the bag already,
den you koe wad he tell me?
" actually this bag doesn't really suits you."
cos we see another with the same prints and colour, bigger but same price.
i was like thinking, if he never tell me earlier tat the bag doesn't suits me,
den i already pay le den how? den after which he recommend other bags to me,
a white plain bag which i tink was pretty nice too,
and you koe wad he tells me again?
" this bag is too classy already"
in another way of saying things, he is actually saying i'm not classy!!!
tat guy was a very straight forward guy.
i wonder if he is a aj, cos he look so much like one.
i'm like sian half when he " shoot" me 2 times in a row.
hel still tink he is kind of cute, as in the way he talks.
i was like, complaining all the way bout the 2 "shoots" he sent me to hel.
never mind. no point getting upset over something like tat.
den when we check the price, we think we over charged us and damn,
the tickets had all been given out!!!!!
arghhh. sian rite?

went out with hubby the other day.
watch the little man show.
damn funny lah. i was laughing like mad. =)
den after which we go to a ktv pub which his friend recommend.
well. i'm excited lah, cos it's the 1st time i go to a pub.
anyway, it's a small pub in serangoon called the sing no.1 i tink.
i tell you, i'm sure i'm the youngest down there.
most of the ppl there were like ppl in the late early 20's to their 40's.
and there will be gurls in sexy attire to help you pour your beer.
weird lah. i dun really like there though.

anyway.

pictures taken with my little sister before going out.

and pictures taken with hubby. =)

will be meeting hubby on sunday!!! =)